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30 CARA MELEMBUTKAN HATI

2012-02-10T09:03:00.000+08:00

Hadis riwayat Aisyah ra. istri Nabi saw.:

Rasulullah saw. bersabda: Wahai Aisyah! Sesungguhnya Allah itu Maha Lembut yang menyukai kelembutan. Allah akan memberikan kepada orang yang bersikap lembut sesuatu yang tidak diberikan kepada orang yang bersikap keras dan kepada yang lainnya

Kita tidak lalai akan do'a yang satu ini : "Ya Dzat yang membolak-balikkan hati, tetapkanlah diriku dalam Agama-Mu dan dalam Ketaatan kepada-Mu".

Begitulah, menjaga kondisi hati untuk senantiasa istiqomah berada di jalan Allah, senantiasa bersih dari segala kotoran dan lembut dari segala kekerasan (hati), tidaklah mudah. Kesibukan dan rutinitas kita yang menguras tenaga dan pikiran, serta interaksi yang terus menerus dengan masalah duniawi, jika tidak diimbangi dengan "makanan-makanan" hati, terkadang membuat hati menjadi keras, kering, lalu mati... Padahal sebagai seorang mukmin, dalam melihat berbagai macam persoalan kehidupan, haruslah dengan mata hati yang jernih.

Untuk itu, beberapa nashehat berikut patut kita renungi dalam upaya melembutkan hati. Kita hendaknya senantiasa:

1. Takut akan datangnya maut secara tiba-tiba sebelum kita sempat bertaubat.

2. Takut tidak menunaikan hak-hak Allah secara sempurna. Sesungguhnya hak-hak Allah itu pasti diminta pertanggungjawabannya.

3. Takut tergelincir dari jalan yang lurus, dan berjalan di atas jalan kemaksiatan dan jalan syaithan.

4. Takut memandang remeh atas banyaknya nikmat Allah pada diri kita.

5. Takut akan balasan siksa yang segera di dunia, karena maksiat yang kita lakukan.

6. Takut mengakhiri hidup dengan su'ul khatimah.

7. Takut menghadapi sakaratul maut dan sakitnya sakaratul maut.

8. Takut menghadapi pertanyaan malaikat Munkar dan Nakir di dalam kubur.

9. Takut akan adzab dan prahara di alam kubur.

10. Takut menghadapi pertanyaan hari kiamat atas dosa besar dan dosa kecil yang kita lakukan.

11. Takut melalui titian yang tajam. Sesungguhnya titian itu lebih halus daripada rambut dan lebih tajam dari pedang.

12. Takut dijauhkan dari memandang wajah Allah.

13. Perlu mengetahui tentang dosa dan aib kita.

14. Takut terhadap nikmat Allah yang kita rasakan siang dan malam sedang kita tidak bersyukur.

15. Takut tidak diterima amalan-amalan dan ucapan-ucapan kita.

16. Takut bahwa Allah tidak akan menolong dan membiarkan kita sendiri.

17. Kekhawatiran kita menjadi orang yang tersingkap aibnya pada hari kematian dan pada hari timbangan ditegakkan.

18. Hendaknya kita mengembalikan urusan diri kita, anak-anak, keluarga, suami dan harta kepada Allah Subhanahu wa Ta'ala. Dan jangan kita bersandar dalam memperbaiki urusan ini kecuali pada Allah.

19. Sembunyikanlah amal-amal kita dari riya' ke dalam hati, karena terkadang riya' itu memasuki hati kita, sedang kita tidak merasakannya. Hasan Al Basri rahimahullah pernah berkata kepada dirinya sendiri. "Berbicaralah engkau wahai diri. Dengan ucapan orang sholeh, yang qanaah lagi ahli ibadah. Dan engkau melaksanakan amal orang fasik dan riya'. Demi Allah, ini bukan sifat orang mukhlis".

20. Jika kita ingin sampai pada derajat ikhlas maka hendaknya akhlak kita seperti akhlak seorang bayi yang tidak peduli orang yang memujinya atau membencinya.

21. Hendaknya kita memiliki sifat cemburu ketika larangan-larangan Allah diremehkan.

22. Ketahuilah bahwa amal sholeh dengan keistiqomahan jauh lebih disukai Allah daripada amal sholeh yang banyak tetapi tidak istiqomah dengan tetap melakukan dosa.

23. Ingatlah setiap kita sakit bahwa kita telah istirahat dari dunia dan akan menuju akhirat dan akan menemui Allah dengan amalan yang buruk.

24. Hendaknya ketakutan pada Allah menjadi jalan kita menuju Allah selama kita sehat.

25. Setiap kita mendengar kematian seseorang maka perbanyaklah mengambil pelajaran dan nasihat. Dan jika kita menyaksikan jenazah maka khayalkanlah bahwa kita yang sedang diusung.

26. Hati-hatilah menjadi orang yang mengatakan bahwa Allah menjamin rezeki kita sedang hatinya tidak tenteram kecuali sesuatu yang ia kumpul-kumpulkan. Dan menyatakan sesungguhnya akhirat itu lebih baik dari dunia, sedang kita tetap mengumpul-ngumpulkan harta dan tidak menginfakkannya sedikit pun, dan mengatakan bahwa kita pasti mati padahal dia tidak pernah ingat mati.

27. Lihatlah dunia dengan pandangan I'tibar (pelajaran) bukan dengan pandangan mahabbah (kecintaan) kepadanya dan sibuk dengan perhiasannya.

28. Ingatlah bahwa kita sangat tidak kuat menghadapi cobaan dunia. Lantas apakah kitasanggup menghadapi panasnya jahannam?

29. Di antara akhlak wanita mu'minah adalah menasihati sesama mu'minah.

30. Jika kita melihat orang yang lebih besar dari kita, maka muliakanlah dia dan katakan kepadanya, "Anda telah mendahului saya di dalam Islam dan amal sholeh maka dia jauh lebih baik di sisi Allah. Anda keluar ke dunia setelah saya, maka dia lebih baik sedikit dosanya dari saya dan dia lebih baik dari saya di sisi Allah."

Diposkan oleh ..::MENJAGA HATI LEBIH BERAT DARI MENJAGA DUNIA::..

DIA PERGI DULU

2012-02-08T18:29:00.001+08:00

12.00 am 7/2/11 - am going to sleep... mata dah mengantuk... tapi berpusing2 di tempat tido, cuaca agak panas, but then i on the air-cond....pusing kiri x kena, pusing kanan x kena.... bangun... continue wat i was doing before trying to go to bed.... 1.48 am my phone rang, it was my elder sister, before pick-up the phone i was wondering, why she called so late, she cannot sleep ke & nk continue gossip ke... but then, i think again, cannot be, mesti ada something urgent... cepat2 pick-up... than she said "dian dh x de". Innalillah.... mengigil tubuh ku.... so i told her, we have to go now.... after putting down the hp, called my doter... than i don't really know wat to do, kelam-kabut x tentu hala, picked-up my travel bag, put-in telekong, surat yaasin, sepasang baju, towel, deodorant, sub-block, lipstick... mcm nk pi holiday, entah pape la. By 4.00 am, my doter, her hubby, my sis & family sampai. We all pun bertolak ke Ipoh.. smpi Tapah around 5.00 am, we stopped, had breakfast & solat subuh... around 6.30am bertolak ke Ipoh, reached there about 7.00am... masuk, 2 of her sisters & brother were there, crying hugging us.... tgk jenazah, sedekah al-fatihah & yaasin....

Yang sedih tgk anak2 dia, Hanna age almost 5 & Uzair age almost 2... yg si kakak, trying to be strong, we can see how she control herself not to cry... kesian pulak... she suppose to cry, not avoiding it... tu yg buat sedih sgt tu.... but she does look confused, why her mum laying there not moving & covered. She asked me "ngapa mama pakai putih". Sedih & me too try not to cry in-front of her.. Si adik, baru dapat kaki, so excited, berlari ke sana sini, dunno wat was happening....

Most of her mak sedara managed to make it to visit her for the last time, k.ze, me, azmah, yati & lah, serta pak sedara p.su midi.... kaze yg dtg, nurul & family, eyda & family, yana & hubby, murni & hubby.

Hari ini baru ler compute in my head, that i've lost another family member, semalam x terasa sgt, even nk nangis pun susah, but today baru meleleh airmata.

Muga Allah cucuri rahmat ke atas rohnya & rohnya ditempatkan bersama orang2 yg soleh Amin Al-fathihah.

Mengapa kamu kafir kepada Allah, padahal kamu tadinya mati, lalu Allah menghidupkan kamu, kemudian kamu dimatikan dan dihidupkan-Nya kembali, kemudian kepada-Nya-lah kamu dikembalikan? (Al Baqarah:28)

Sesuatu yang bernyawa tidak akan mati melainkan dengan izin Allah, sebagai ketetapan yang telah ditentukan waktunya. Barangsiapa menghendaki pahala dunia, niscaya Kami berikan kepadanya pahala dunia itu, dan barangsiapa menghendaki pahala akhirat, Kami berikan (pula) kepadanya pahala akhirat. Dan Kami akan memberi balasan kepada orang-orang yang bersyukur. (Al-Imran :145)

WHATS IN MY HEART

2012-02-06T18:41:00.000+08:00

Sometimes it is better to keep everything tightly in our hearts. No need to express our feelings which can bring sadness or hurting people around us.... When someone question you, about your feelings all this while, or what hidden inside your heart, it is really putting you in a very difficult situation. Or when someone accused you dat, when you said you miss someone it is only words & you don't really meant it... It is sad.... sometimes, you can only realize that someone has been missed when you meet the person after a long time. With daily routine, maybe you don't really have time to think about dat person, or sometimes you just brushed your feelings in the event to protect your heart from getting hurt... i guess dats what i have been doing.... who cares for what we feel, if not our ownselves, rite.....

Too much pain... why not just take my words for it... i do miss you.... don't you think it is good enough... what if i answered your question with heartbreaking stories??? I don't think you want to hear it....

Life is too short to think about the pass which hurting so much... i rather live for today, if today can make me happy....

Wats in my heart, i rather let it remain there, no need to dig it & let it out just for the sake of my own satisfaction which end-up make things worst between us... to me, i will see you when i see you... not that i don't miss you.... but i always avoid those feelings if its going to hurt me.... meeting you dat day, was a nice feeling, till you spoilt it with the question which i don't really know how to answer.....

‘O you who believe! Take care of your ownselves. If you follow the (right) guidance [and enjoin what is right (Islamic Monotheism and all that Islam orders one to do) and forbid what is wrong (polytheism, disbelief and all that Islam has forbidden)] no hurt can come to you from those who are in error’
[al-Maa’idah 5:105]

Shaykh al-Islam said concerning what we learn from the verse “Take care of your ownselves…”:

“… Enjoining what is good and forbidding what is evil in the manner prescribed in Islam, based on knowledge, kindness, patience, good intentions and doing it in the proper manner, is included in the phrase “Take care of your ownselves…” and in the phrase “If you follow the (right) guidance”.

And only Allah S.W.T knows wats inside my heart....

TAKE BACK YOUR HEART

2012-02-05T14:52:00.000+08:00

Credit goes to Sister Yasmin Mogahed for this articles, which taken me aback & realize that there are a lot of this to be done before THE DAY comes.

Ocean of Dunya Part I | Part II

No one likes to fall. And few people would ever choose to drown. But in struggling through the ocean of this life, sometimes it’s so hard not to let the world in. Sometimes the ocean does enter us. The dunya does seep into our hearts.

And like the water that breaks the boat, when dunya enters, it shatters our heart. It shatters the boat. Recently, I was reminded of what a broken boat looks like, of what happens when you let everything in. I was reminded because I saw someone, just like me, fall in love too much with this life and seek to be filled by the creation. So the ocean of dunya shattered her boat, as it had shattered mine, and she fell out into the water. But she stayed down too long, and didn’t know how to come back up or what to hold on to.

So she drowned.

If you allow dunya to own your heart, like the ocean that owns the boat, it will take over. You will sink down to the depths of the sea. You will touch the ocean floor. And you will feel as though you were at your lowest point. Entrapped by your sins and the love of this life, you will feel broken. Surrounded by darkness. That’s the amazing thing about the floor of the ocean. No light reaches it.

But, this dark place is not the end. Remember that the darkness of night precedes the dawn. And as long as your heart still beats, this is not the death of it. You don’t have to die here. Sometimes, the ocean floor is only a stop on the journey. And it is when you are at this lowest point, that you are faced with a choice. You can stay there at the bottom, until you drown. Or you can gather pearls and rise back up—stronger from the swim, and richer from the jewels.

If you seek Him, God can raise you up, and replace the darkness of the ocean, with the light of His sun. He can transform what was once your greatest weakness into your greatest strength, and a means of growth, purification and redemption. Know that transformation sometimes begins with a fall. So never curse the fall. The ground is where humility lives. Take it. Learn it. Breathe it in. And then come back stronger, humbler and more aware of your need for Him. Come back having seen your own nothingness and His greatness. Know that if you have seen that Reality, you have seen much. For the one who is truly deceived is the one who sees his own self—but not Him. Deprived is the one who has never witnessed his own desperate need for God. Reliant on his own means, he forgets that the means, his own soul, and everything else in existence are His creation.

Seek God to bring you back up, for when He does, He will rebuild your ship. The heart that you thought was forever damaged will be mended. What was shattered will be whole again. Know that only He can do this. Seek Him.

And when He saves you, beg forgiveness for the fall, feel remorse over it—but not despair. As Ibn ul Qayyim (ra) has said: “Satan rejoiced when Adam (peace be upon him) came out of Paradise, but he did not know that when a diver sinks into the sea, he collects pearls and then rises again.”

There is a powerful and amazing thing about tawbah (repentance) and turning back to Allah (swt). We are told that it is a polish for the heart. What’s amazing about a polish is that it doesn’t just clean. It makes the object that is polished even shinier than it was before it got dirty. If you come back to God, seek His forgiveness, and refocus your life and heart on Him, you have the potential to be even richer than if you’d never fallen at all. Sometimes falling and coming back up gives you wisdom and humility that you may never otherwise have had. Ibn ul Qayyim (ra) writes:

“One of the Salaf (Pious Predecessors) said: “Indeed a servant commits a sin by which he enters Paradise; and another does a good deed by which he enters the Fire.” It was asked: How is that? So he replied: “The one who committed the sin, constantly thinks about it; which causes him to fear it, regret it, weep over it and feel ashamed in front of his Lord—the Most High—due to it. He stands before Allah, broken-hearted and with his head lowered in humility. So this sin is more beneficial to him than doing many acts of obedience, since it caused him to have humility and humbleness—which leads to the servant’s happiness and success—to the extent that this sin becomes the cause for him entering Paradise. As for the doer of good, then he does not consider this good a favor from his Lord upon him. Rather, he becomes arrogant and amazed with himself, saying: I have achieved such and such, and such and such. So this further increases him in self-adulation, pride and arrogance—such that this becomes the cause for his destruction.”

Allah (swt) reminds us in the Qur’an to never lose hope. He says: “Say, ‘O My servants who have transgressed against their souls [by sinning], despair not of the mercy of Allah. Indeed, Allah forgives all sins. Indeed, it is He who is the Forgiving, the Merciful,’” (39:53).

And so, this is a call to all those who have become enslaved by the tyranny of the self, imprisoned in the dungeon of the nafs (self) and desires. It is a call to all those who have entered the ocean of dunya, who have sunk into its depths, and become trapped by its crushing waves. Rise up. Rise up to the air, to the Real world above the prison of the ocean. Rise up to your freedom. Rise up and come back to life. Leave the death of your soul behind you. Your heart can still live and be stronger and purer than it ever was. Does not the polish of tawbah remake the heart even more beautiful than it was? Remove the veil you have sewn with your sins. Remove the veil between you and Life, between you and Freedom, between you and Light—between you and God. Remove the veil and rise up. Come back to yourself. Come back to where you began. Come back Home. Know that when all the other doors have shut in your face, there is One that is always open. Always. Seek it. Seek Him and He will guide you through the waves of the cruel ocean, into the mercy of the sun.

This world cannot break you—unless you give it permission. And it cannot own you unless you hand it the keys – unless you give it your heart. And so, if you have handed those keys to dunya for a while—take them back. This isn’t the End. You don’t have to die here. Reclaim your heart and place it with its rightful owner:

God.

The Ocean of Dunya

2012-02-05T14:39:00.001+08:00

Came across this meaningful articles which is really good for self-reflection.. who we are in this world & where are we going from here???? Something to think & ponder. Have a good reading guys.

Credit given to the author of this article Sister Yasmin Mogahed & my apology for not getting her permission before posting it to my blog... but may Allah blessed her for this wonderful articles, which am sure, those who read this will have a deep thought of who they are & what are their purpose life in this world.

Part I | Part II

Yesterday, I went to the beach. As I sat watching the massive Californian waves, I realized something strange. The ocean is so breathtakingly beautiful. But just as it is beautiful, it is also deadly. The same spellbinding waves, which we appreciate from the shore, can kill us if we enter them. Water, the same substance necessary to sustain life, can end life, in drowning. And the same ocean that holds ships afloat can shatter those ships to pieces.

This worldly life, the dunya, is just like the ocean. And our hearts are the ships. We can use the ocean for our needs and as a means to get to our final destination. But the ocean is only that: a means. It is a means for seeking food of the sea. It is a means of travel. It is a means of seeking a higher purpose. But it is something which we only pass through, but never think to remain in. Imagine what would happen if the ocean became our end – rather than just a means.

Eventually we would drown.

As long as the ocean’s water remains outside the ship, the ship will continue to float and be in control. But what happens as soon as the water creeps into the ship? What happens when the dunya is not just water outside of our hearts, when the dunya is no longer just a means? What happens when the dunya enters our heart?

That is when the boat sinks.

That is when the heart is taken hostage and becomes a slave. And that is when the dunya – which was once under our control – begins to control us. When the ocean’s water enters and overtakes a ship, that ship is no longer in control. The boat then becomes at the mercy of the ocean.

To stay afloat, we must view this world in exactly the same way, for Allah (swt) has told us that “Verily in the creation of the heavens and the earth are signs for those who reflect.” (Qur’an, 3:190) We live in the dunya, and the dunya is in fact created for our use. Detachment from dunya (zuhd) does not mean that we do not interact with this world. Rather, the Prophet ﷺ has taught us that we must:

Anas (ra) said: “Three people came to the houses of the wives of the Prophet, may Allah bless him and grant him peace, to ask about how the Prophet ﷺ worshipped. When they were told, it was as if they thought it was little and said, ‘Where are we in relation to the Messenger of Allah, may Allah bless him and grant him peace, who has been forgiven his past and future wrong actions?’” He said, “One of them said, ‘I will pray all of every night.’ Another said, ‘I will fast all the time and not break the fast.’ The other said, “I will withdraw from women and never marry.’ The Messenger of Allah came to them and said, ‘Are you the ones who said such-and-such? By Allah, I am the one among you with the most fear and awareness of Allah, but I fast and break the fast, I pray and I sleep, and I marry women. Whoever disdains my sunnah is not with me.’” [Agreed upon]

The Prophet ﷺ did not withdraw from the dunya in order to be detached from it. His detachment was much deeper. It was the detachment of the heart. His ultimate attachment was only to Allah (swt) and the home with Him, for he truly understood the words of God:

“What is the life of this world but amusement and play? But verily the Home in the Hereafter, – that is life indeed, if they but knew.” (Qur’an, 29:64)

Detachment does not even mean that we cannot own things of the dunya. In fact many of the greatest companions were wealthy. Rather, detachment is that we view and interact with the dunya for what it really is: just a means. Detachment is when the dunya remains in our hand – not in our heart. As `Ali (ra) expressed beautifully, “Detachment is not that you should own nothing, but that nothing should own you.”

Like the ocean’s water entering the boat, the moment that we let the dunya enter our hearts, we will sink. The ocean was never intended to enter the boat; it was intended only as a means that must remain outside of it. The dunya, too, was never intended to enter our heart. It is only a means that must not enter or control us. This is why Allah (swt) repeatedly refers to the dunya in the Qur’an as a mata’a. The word mata’a can be translated as a “resource for transitory worldly delight.” It is a resource. It is a tool. It is the path—not the destination.

And it is this very concept that the Prophet ﷺ spoke about so eloquently when he said:

“What relationship do I have with this world? I am in this world like a rider who halts in the shade of a tree for a short time, and after taking some rest, resumes his journey leaving the tree behind.” (Ahmad, Tirmidhi)

Consider for a moment the metaphor of a traveler. What happens when you’re traveling or you know that your stay is only temporary? When you’re passing through a city for one night, how attached do you get to that place? If you know it’s temporary, you’ll be willing to stay at Motel 6. But would you like to live there? Probably not. Suppose your boss sent you to a new town to work on a limited project. Suppose he didn’t tell you exactly when the project would end, but you knew that you could be returning home, any day. How would you be in that town? Would you invest in massive amounts of property and spend all your savings on expensive furniture and cars? Most likely not. Even while shopping, would you buy cart-loads of food and other perishables? No. You’d probably hesitate about buying any more than you need for a couple days – because your boss could call you back any day.

This is the mindset of a traveler. There is a natural detachment that comes with the realization that something is only temporary. That is what the Prophet ﷺ in his wisdom, is talking about in this profound hadith. He understood the danger of becoming engrossed in this life. In fact, there was nothing he feared for us more.

He ﷺ said, “By Allah I don’t fear for you poverty, but I fear that the world would be abundant for you as it has been for those before you, so you compete for it as they have competed for it, so it destroys you as it has destroyed them.” (Agreed upon)

The blessed Prophet ﷺ recognized the true nature of this life. He understood what it meant to be in the dunya, without being of it. He sailed the very same ocean that we all must. But his ship knew well from where it had come, and to where it was going. His was a boat that remained dry. He understood that the same ocean which sparkles in the sunlight, will become a graveyard for the ships that enter it.

SENYUMLAH SAYANG

2012-02-03T22:18:00.000+08:00

Dia tersenyum, wajahnya penuh ceria. Dia kelihatan bersemangat, seperti dia yg pernah aku kenal dulu.... Kali terakhir aku berjumpa dia, di wajahnya penuh kedukaan, amat sukar baginya untuk mengukir senyuman.... kepedihan tergambar di wajahnya. Keceriaan seolah2 telah meninggalkan dia jauh... waktu itu aku sendiri begitu risau melihat keadaannya. Dia lemah, tidak bersemangat, seolah-olah berputus-asa dgn kehidupan ini. Aku tahu apa yg dilaluinya, aku tahu penderitaannya, kerana pernah melaluinya suatu masa dahulu.

Justru seboleh mungkin, aku tidak mahu dia melaluinya dgn keadaan sebegitu rupa... memang kepedihan pasti terasa, penderitaan mencengkam jiwa. Ujian dari Allah yang amat berat itu, pasti akan meninggalkan kesan kepada kehidupan hariannya... tapi aku mahu dia meredhainya, tabah menghadapinya & tidak terlalu memikirkannya. Banyak lagi perkara2 lain yg boleh membahagiakan dia.. seandainya, takdirnya begitu & kita tidak mampu mengubahnya, serahkan saja pada Yang Esa... & kita teruskan saja kehidupan kita bersama2 mereka yg menyayangi kita. Memang cakap senang, nk melakukannya amat payah.

Tapi melihat wajahnya baru2 ini... aku sendiri merasa amat bahagia... ku bisik ke telinganya betapa aku gembira melihat dia sedemikian rupa... lantas dia tersenyum & berkata, tiada siapa yg tahu apa yg tersirat di dalam hatinya. Tidak mengapa, tiada siapa yg tahu, tapi Allah lbh mengetahui... kita serahkan yg tersembunyi itu pada Yg Arif tentang rahsia kehidupan... biarkan Dia mengendalikan hati kita ini.... Alhamdullillah, memang aku amat bersyukur, bukan aku sahaja yg perasan perubahan pada dirinya pada hari itu, tapi mereka2 yg bersama ku pada hari itu juga perasan akan perubahan itu.

Aku berdoa, semuga dia terus diberi kekuatan & ketabahan dalam menjalani kehidupannya... seandainya umur kita semua masih panjang, sudah pasti banyak lagi ujian yg akan kita lalui....

Senyumlah sayang, senyum mu menceriakan insan2 disekelilingmu.... tidak mengapa kita sorokkan kedukaan di dalam hati. Alangkah indahnya kehidupan kita andainya senyuman kita itu dpt membahagiakan insan yg lain.....

APAKAH BERKAT

2012-01-26T16:12:00.000+08:00

Berkat diambil daripada perkataan Arab iaitu “BARAKAH". Dan perkerjaan “mengambil berkat“ pula dikenali sebagai “TABARRUK“.

Sudah tentulah “ berkat “ yang ditanya itu bukannya “ berkat @ barakat “ sebagai mana yang difahami oleh masyarakat Jawa, iaitu “ nasi kenduri yang dibawa pulang sebagai bekalan “.

Oleh itu “berkat“ ini ialah : BAHAGIA, BERUNTUNG, BERTAMBAH & BERKEMBANG .

Ar-Raghib Al-Isfahani mendefinasikannya sebagai :

Ertinya : “ Keberkatan itu ialah tetapnya kebaikan Ilahi di dalam sesuatu “.

Maka jelaslah “ MENGAMBIL BERKAT “ pula ialah : “ Mengharapkan datangnya kebaikan daripada Allah Ta’ala dari sesuatu yang dipercayai mempunyai nilai-nilai keberkatan “.

Contoh-contohnya :

KEBERKATAN DI DALAM BELAJAR :

~ Sedikit yang dipelajari dengan ikhlas kerana Allah Ta’ala, membuahkan lagi ilmu-ilmu lain.
~ Secocok dengan ajaran Allah Ta’ala dan Rasul-Nya (saw).
~ Ianya membuahkan amal seterusnya iman.
~ Ianya merangsangkan lagi minat beribadat.
~ Ilmu yang disalurkan, dikembangkan pula oleh generasi selepasnya.

KEBERKATAN DI DALAM BERAMAL & BERIBADAT :

~ Amalan yang diamalkan itu secocok dengan Allah Ta’ala dan Rasul-Nya (saw).
~ Amalan itu IKHLAS kerana Allah Ta’ala.
~ Amalan itu membuahkan hasil yang selari dengan kehendak Islam.
~ Terasa manisnya beribadat.
~ Lahirnya ibadat itu setelah mempelajari Sunnah Baginda s.a.w.

KEBERKATAN MASA :
~ Berdoa di saat menjelangnya Subuh ( 1/3 daripada malam ).
~ Makbulnya doa di antara Azan dengan Iqamah.
~ Makbulnya doa di antara Azan Jumaat dengan selesainya khutbahnya.
~ Makbulnya doa khasnya di musim Ramadhan dan terutamanya di 10 hari-hari terakhirnya.
~ Makbulnya doa ketika melakukan Ibadah Haji khasnya ketika melakukan Wuquf di Arafah.

KEBERKATAN TEMPAT :
~ Beribadat di ketiga-tiga masjid : Masjidil Haram di Mekkah Al-Mukarramah, di Masjid an-Nabawi di Madinah Al-Munawwarah dan di Masjidil Aqsa di Palestin.
~ Berkatnya berdoa di Padang Arafah ketika Wuquf.
~ Berkatnya berdoa di Multazam, Di Safa & Marwah, Maqam Ibrahim, Telaga Zam-Zam dan sekitar kawasan haji.

KEBERKATAN PADA REZEKI DAN MAKANAN-MINUMAN :
~ Rezeki itu daripada sumber yang tidak haram dan tidak syubhat.
~ Rezeki itu sedikit dirasa, tetapi mencukupi keperluan.
~ Rezeki itu dengannya kita mampu membiayai keluarga dan menjaga kebajikan mereka menurut neraca syariat.
~ Rezeki itu tidak “ menggelapkan hati “ daripada cahaya Allah Ta’ala.
~ Rezeki itu tidak menyebabkan kita jauh daripada hidayah Allah Ta’ala.
~ Rezeki itu menyemarakkan lagi semangat untuk beribadat.

KEBERKATAN PADA USIA :
~ Usia yang ada dimanfaatkan untuk menegakkan perjuangan Islam.
~ Usia sedikit, tetapi mendatangkan manfaat yang besar – contohnya ulama’ silam, mereka mampu menghasilkan kitab-kitab yang berjumlah beratus-ratus jilid dan judul walaupun mereka tidak mampu hidup lama.
~ Usia itu memenuhi persoalan : “ Untuk apa kita dilahirkan ke dunia ini ? “.

Kerana keberkatan itu sendiri adalah urusan ibadat, maka sudah semestinyalah ianya ditentukan oleh MAHA PENGATUR SYARIAT iaitu Allah Ta’ala dan diterangkan pula oleh utusan-Nya iaitu Baginda Rasulullah s.a.w/

DIPETIK DARI http://ustaznaim.blogspot.com/2012/01/apakah-berkat.html

SOON I WILL BE THE ONLY ONE

2012-01-25T20:58:00.000+08:00

Soon... i will be the only one left

walking on the long lonely beach

playing the old record in my head

when we were young, naughty & naive

foolish & stupid

creating history of our life

together our hearts being broken

sharing tears of pain

laughter of craziness.

It was so long ago

we grow old together

become wiser & mature

thru thin & thickness

in searching the meaning of life.

Soon, it will only be me

gathering all those memories

picking the pieces left behind

while they continue their life

with their significant one.

TIKA

2012-01-24T20:03:00.000+08:00

Tika keresahan ku sebut nama Mu

Tika kegelishan ku sebut nama Mu

Tika kebingungan ku sebut nama Mu

Tika kesedihan ku sebut nama Mu

Tika kepedihan ku sebut nama Mu

Tika kebuntuan ku sebut nama Mu

Tika kesunyian ku sebut nama Mu

Tika keseorangan ku sebut nama Mu

Tika kerinduan ku sebut nama Mu

Tika di persimpangan ku sebut nama Mu

Justru Ya Rahman

Lenyapkanlah perasaan yang membelenggu ku ini.

Damaikanlah hati ini

Tenangkanlah jiwa ini

Kuatkanlah semangat ini

Ya Rahim!!!

PESAN HATI PADA DIRI SENDIRI

2012-01-24T12:45:00.000+08:00

2nd day CNY, as promised the day before, i decided to join my frenz to jog at Lake Garden. Pagi2 lagi selepas solat subuh, went to fetch my dearest fren Robayah & by the time we reached Lake Garden Farida & her hubby already there. Matahari belum naik lagi. Alhamdullillah 2 round Lake Garden, i think 4-5 round Lake Titiwangsa kot. Anyway, with Farida & Bayah, while walking, we talked about, watelse, my dearest fren yg sorang ni soon will be married.

Then we talked about out past, how we managed to break ourselves from those stupid unhealthy relationship.... hem... sad but true. how stupid we were before. Alhamdullillah, we are out of that situation now. Farida asked me, how i managed to get-out, yeah after 16 years, not easy ok... i said, memang not easy, but something really big happened which made me realized i was on the wrong path.. & not easy to forget him... sometimes missed him like crazy, uncontrollable. What i did, zikir, selawat & doa Laillahaillanata...... sentiasa membasahi bibir. Doa, zikir & selawat itulah yang memberikan aku kekuatan, menenangkan hati, menghilangkan rasa rindu yg teramat sgt... alhamdullillah.

Since i am here, i was also sempat check-out a few blog that i follows, ok. nampaknya blog yg satu ini ada topik yg amat menarik, so i am going to copy & paste it here:

Wahai mata, janganlah menangis tersedu sedan meratapi setiap keperitan yang menjalar memakan perasaan. Kerana kau harus percaya bahawa setiap dugaan yang sedang kau rasa adalah takdir dari yang maha Esa. Tiada duka yang akan abadi selamanya. Dan Allah maha perkasa menentukan segalaNya. Redhalah dengan suratan yang telah di gariskan. Maha Adil Allah akan menjadikan segalanya sempurna.

Lekak lekuk di kehidupan sementara ini adalah lubang-lubang yang perlu ditampung dengan kekuatan dan iman yang kukuh, barulah perjalananmu bisa menjadi sekuat aloi yang tidak akan runtuh.

Wahai mulut, kau diciptaNya begitu unik dan tiada sesiapa yang bisa menggantikan fungsinya walaupun sebuah robot ciptaan manusia yang berharga sejuta. Melaluinya, Allah menghadiahkan pula suara. Dan aku mengharapkan suara yang akan dikeluarkan bukan segala jenis umpatan dan cacian terhadap kejadian yang terlihat di penglihatan. Jadikanlah mulut itu sebagai saksi suara melafazkan ayat-ayat Allah dan memberikan nasihat dan kebaikan.

Wahai telinga, dengarkan segala nasihat-nasihat yang bernilai yang akan memimpinmu menjalani kehidupan ini dengan sempurna. Tutuplah telinga mu dari mendengan suara-suara sumbang yang cuba membengkokkan jalan yang lurus, yang cuba melalaikan dan menidurkan mindamu dari berfikir perkara kebaikan.

Wahai jasad yang akan hancur lumat dimamah tanah, kau adalah amanah dari Allah. Siapa kita untuk menjadi perosak diri? Tega sungguh wahai manusia jika kehidupan sementara yang dilalui diisi dengan melakukan maksiat yang hanya akan memakan diri.

Bukankah diri adalah amanah dari Allah untuk kita jaga dan lindungi dari azab api neraka? Allah hadiahkan kita penglihatan, pendengaran, suara, sentuhan dan segala kemudahan. Dia tidak meminta bayaran di setiap sedutan udara yang kita gunakan. Apakah hendak bersyukur dengan menyebut sepatah “Alhamdulillah “ pun terasa berat untuk di ucapkan?

Berterima kasihlah kepada Allah yang maha pemurah lagi maha pengasih. Nikmat yang di anugerahkan ini terlalu bernilai. Jagalah dan gunakanlah di jalan Allah dan bukan gunanya untuk meraih dunia semata-mata.

kredit: http://akuislam.com/blog/renungan/pesan-hati-pada-diri/#ixzz1kLagmSs7

ALL ABOUT WAITING

2012-01-23T21:16:00.000+08:00

“She was still waiting for him to come back to her, even though he wasn't going to. She was still holding out for something that wasn't going to happen. She was good at waiting. That seemed like a sad thing to be good at.”

When you chose to follow the way of purity, did you expect it to be easy? When you decided to wait for the best, did you think that waiting would be fun? Did you think that your faith would not be tested? When you decided to take the narrow path, did no one warn you that difficulties, hardship, and tears would be part of the journey, and that you would often face rejection from others and be forced to walk alone?

“...sitting and waiting is one of the most miserable occupations known to man - not that it usually is known to men; women do it much more often.”

“Maybe you think you’ll be entitled to more happiness later by forgoing all of it now, but it doesn’t work that way. Happiness takes as much practice as unhappiness does. It’s by living that you live more. By waiting you wait more. Every waiting day makes your life a little less. Every lonely day makes you a little smaller. Every day you put off your life makes you less capable of living it.”

“Waiting hurts. Forgetting hurts. But not knowing which decision to take can sometimes be the most painful...”

“Waiting's exhausting.”

“Go if you want to know what's behind those hills, Run if you want to catch
what's waiting there for you, Walk through another door...on another floor.
Learn how to get across, if you want to come through”

SAJA JE

2012-01-23T16:22:00.000+08:00

Sekarang biarkan aku terus haus mengejar fatamorgana yang tak sudah. Sekarang biar aku terhimpit dengan sisa runtuhan istana khayalan kerana ini semua kifarah Allah. Aku redha dengan kifarah Mu ini. Biarlah kifarah ini menjadi hidayah dari Mu yang akan menerangkan setiap jalan yang bakal ku tempuhi sehingga bertemu Mu nanti.

Sehebat mana cinta, tetapi tanpa jodoh ketentuanNya, tiada daya jua untuk bersama. Dan walau kau tak punya sesiapa, tatkala sampai masa yang ditentukanNya, dia yang kau tunggu dalam doa akan tiba. Bukan sebagai kekasih sementara, tetapi kekasih abadi yang akan memimpinmu ke syurga.

2ND CLASS CITIZEN

2012-01-23T13:23:00.001+08:00

"2nd class citizen"... how & what cause i uttered those words. I was angry i remembered, getting so excited about something.... Ok i guess this is how it begin....

Four of us, were sitting at the dining table, at a fren's house, discussing about marriage topic particularly about being a 2nd wife.... wat things should & shouldn't be done by the future 2nd wife & wat is the husband to be should do, to try to make it work, to be responsible, ensuring both parties 1st & 2nd live in harmony... we also discussed wat to expect in the marriage, sometimes we think we have prepared ourselves for everything, but then things happen differently... it doesn't matter if you are the only wife, 2nd or 3rd or so on... marriage are all the same... the degree maybe different but then, it is wat marriage all about... risk, challenge, patience, give and take... and lots lots more....

Going back to the topic... suddenly one of my fren was saying, wat if the man said to his girlfren who he wanted to marry, "i love my wife very much, she is everything to me, i can't live without her, my life would be haywire without her & bla bla bla....." . What the hack, wat is he doing with her than, i mean the girlfren..., wat he said "this is my rite..." My rite ass la.....

From wat i heard, this is my conclusion, indirectly he is telling her, she cannot demand anything from him if she marry him, especially his time with the 1st one.... he will only fulfill her need AS & WHEN only. He is also telling her(eventhough those words from him) but his is twisting it, as she was the one who totally crazy over him, who desperately wanted to marry him.... my advise to the lady, PLEASE, PLEASE, DON'T DOWNGRADE URSELF, NOW HE CAN SAY ALL THOSE THINGS, ONCE U BECOME HIS WIFE, HE CAN DO WATEVER HE LIKE, HE ALREADY WARNED U WITH ALL THOSE WORDS...PLEASE, PLEASE DON'T BE A 2ND CLASS CITIZEN... 1ST, 2ND OR 3RD WIFE... WE DESERVE THE SAME TREATMENT... DON'T ALLOW URSELF TO BE A 2ND CHOICE... 2ND OR 3RD, HE SHOULD MAKE YOU FEEL U R DESERVE TO BE TREATED EQUALLY AS HIS 1ST WIFE, HIS 1ST CHOICE. IF HE CAN'T DO IT... DO ANGKAT KAKI, BLAH!!!!!!!!!!

We women can accept being 2nd wife and most of us know where we stand... those guys who said all those things or indicating almost the same meaning to you ladies out there, ask them to go FLY KITE la... wat are you doing here with me... of cos we know, you love you wife, we understand the word FATE very well or DESTINY... Saying that it's your rite, what's about our rite as a woman, a wife...

I guess, the last nite conversation somehow make me realised how i was treated last time... it is sad to realize it now... looking back wow... don't want to be there, wish was never there... but that was the lesson i learned... maybe by experiencing it, now i can advise frens or anyone who is going thru the similar situation, insyaAllah.

So today, a bit sad, wanted to cry once & for all, but there is just no more tears....

Abu Hurayrah relate that the prophet (pbuh) said, "the best of you is whoever treats his wife kindly." (Narrated by Ahmad & Tarmidhi)

"Live with them on a footing of kindness and equity." (An-Nisa' : 19)

"I advise you to take care of the women, for they are created from a rib and the most crooked protion of the rib is its Upper part; if you try to straighten it, it will breakd, and if you leave it, it will remain crooked, so i urge you to take care of women." (Narrated by Al-Bukhari)

Another version reads,

The woman is like a rib; if you try to straighten her, she will break. So if you want to get benefit from her, do so while she still has some crookedness.

[Reported by Al-Bukhari]

Al-Quran sebagai penawar

2012-01-22T17:36:00.002+08:00

SURAH DAN PENAWARNYA (Al Quran sebagai penawar):-

Surah al-Qaaf - penyakit tulang
Surah Al-Buruuj - penyakit berkaitan perut
Surah Al-Israa' - penyakit berkaitan jantung
Surah Al-Anfaal - jangkitan kuman (sama fungsi dgn antibiotik)
Surah Al-Anbiyaa - kencing manis, darah tinggi, angin ahmar
Surah Yusuf - lemah tenaga bathin utk lelaki
Surah Maryam - fibroid & masalah kewanitaan
Surah Al-Fatah, Al- Furqaan, Toha, Al-Mu'minun - gangguan sihir, santau, rasuk, ilmu pengasih, ilmu pelalau, ilmu pemisah.

SEGERALAH BERTAUBAT, TAKUT X SEMPAT

2012-01-22T16:08:00.000+08:00

Alhamdullillah, ketika membelek2 majalah MIDI yang dah lama dibeli, tapi belum di baca, yang mana hari ini tetiba terbuka hati ini untuk membacanya. Alhamdullillah, membuka halaman ini, dgn topiknya yg sangat berguna.... mungkin kebetulan atau memang sudah aturan Illahi, di saat kita mencari, maka kita akan menemuinya... justru ini aku berkongsi artikel ini bersama. Tadi dh cuba google majalah MIDI, supaya x payahlah di taip balik artikel ini, just copy & paste, but then again, i guess Allah have better plan for me, dah baca, bila ditaip balik dapatlah menghayatinya sekali lagi... muga juga mendapat sedikit ganjaran dariNya atas usaha yg x seberapa ini, InsyaAllah.

So marilah kita sama2 menghayati & memikirkannya......

Setiap kita diburu penyesalan dan dihimpit ketakutan. Kita menyesal kerana telah berbuat dosa dan takut kalau-kalau dosa itu tidak diampunkan Tuhan Inilah suara hati kita yang mahu bertaubat. Kemuncaknya kita mahu membuat pengakuan taubat itu di depan Allah SWT, di rumahNya di Baitullah.

Namun, masih banyak lagi orang yang tidak takut melakukan maksiat walaupun usia sudah merangkak senja Apa lagi kalau si pembuat maksiat itu merasakan hidupnya tiada harapan mendapat keampunan. Mereka tetap meneruskan gaya hidup yang penuh kemaksiatan dan keburukan itu. Ini memberi gambaran orang yang putus harapan, seolah-olah hidupnya sudah tidak bererti lagi.

Cuba pandang di sekelililing kita. Tidak sedikit orang yang berusia MIDI bergaya seperti anak muda. Umur sudah mendekati ajal, namun gaya tidak ketolongan. Meski sudah berkedut, maksiat tetap tak surut. Rambut sudah beruban buat-buat tak perasan. Tua-tua keladi, makin tua makin menjadi-jadi. Rumah kata pergi, kubur kata mari, namun bukannya insaf tapi malah melekat dengan maksiat.

Sebaliknya, jika yang tua makin menjadi-jadi, yang muda pula bagaikan tidak memiliki hati. Mereka tahu apa yang dilakukan itu tidak elok dan merugikan, tetap saja menutup mata dan hatinya hanya untuk terus memenuhi dahaga nafsunya. "Muda foya-foya, tua kaya-raya, mati masuk syurga" - itu pula yang dijadikan gurauan.... jangan haraplah nak masuk syurga kalau hidup bergelumang dosa!

Anak muda sekarang selalu beranggapan, apabila masuk usia remaja mereka seolah-olah mempunyai tiket untuk melakukan apa saja. Dan sering kali ibubapa berkata, selagi masih muda, buatlah apa yang kau suka. Bagaimana mungkin dengan berfoya-foya tanpa amalan soleh, seseorang itu boleh masuk syurga.

Banyak orang mengakui nak buat baik sangat susah. Tapi kalau buat jahat senang. Tak payah diajar pun, dia tahu. Maka, dia rasa lebih senang terus buat jahat, terus berbuat keburukan dan bermaksiat. "Tak apalah, nanti bila dah tua, kita bertaubatlah..." begitu jawapan mereka.

Kita jangan lupa, mati tidak mengenal usia. Bukan orang tua saja mati tetapi orang muda waima bayi baru lahir pun mati. Kalau nak mulakan suatu kebaikan, tidak perlu menunggu usia MIDI baru boleh melakukannya. Cukup dengan memulainya dari hati dan niatkan. Jika malu dilihat orang, lakukan secara sembunyi-sembunyi untuk melakukan kebaikan itu sehingga hati sudah bersedia. Sebab tanpa memulai rasanya mustahil. Kita patut berpegang pada perinsip, kalau nak buat perkara baik, lakukan mulai saat ini. Kenapa harus menunggu hari esok. Sebab belum tentu esok hari umur kita masih ada. Sama jugalah dengan kata-kata: Mati itu pasti, hidup belum tentu!

Rasulullah sangat berhati-hati dalam soal ini. Baginda mengingatkan erti penting memanafaatkan waktu yang kita miliki, lebih-lebih lagi di saat kita menginjak usia belia.

Dalam hadisnya, Rasulullah mengatakan, "Wahai remaja, peliharalah (perintah) Allah, nescaya Allah akan menjaga kamu, peliharalah (hukum-hakam) Allah nescaya Allah akan bersama kamu, jika kamu memohon sesuatu maka mohonlah kepada Allah." (Hadis Hasan Sahih riwayat Imam Tarmizi).

Daripada Ibnu' Abbas, Rasulullah SAW bersabda; "Manfaatkan lima perkara sebelum lima perkara :

Waktu mudamu sebelum datang waktu tuamu
Waktu sihatmu sebelum datang waktu sakitmu
Masa kayamu sebelum datang masa kefakiranmu
Masa luangmu sebelum datang masa sibukmu
Hidupmu sebelum datang kematianmu

Rasulullah juga bersabda, "Sesekali tidak akan beranjak kedua kaki seorang hamba (manusia) pada Hari Kiamat nanti sehingga kepadanya ditanya tentang empat perkara :

Pertama, ke mana umurnya dia habiskan.
Kedua, ke mana masa mudanya dia pergunakan.
Ketiga, ke mana harta-bendanya ia belanjakan.
Keempat, ke mana ilmunya diamalkan." (al-hadis)

MENUJU PINTU TAUBAT

Kini, sementara masih ada waktu, marilah kita bertanya pada diri-sendiri. Akan ke mana setelah ini? Dan apa amal kita yang akan kita bawa nanti saat menghadap kepada Allah SWT.

Islam tidak pernah menganggap taubat sebagai langkah terlambat. Bila-bila pun kesedaran itu muncul, Allah SWT tetap menerimanya, selama nafas masih menempel di badan. Hisab (perhitungan) akan amal-amal buruk kita di mata Allah akan segera terhapus dengan taubat kita yang sungguh-sungguh (taubat nasuha).

Kata Nabi, "Siapa yang bertaubat sebelum matahari terbit dari barat maka Allah akan menerima taubat dan memaafkannya." (H.R Muslim)

Hanya saja dalam Islam, soal berkaitan taubat ini ada kaedah dan adab-adabnya. Secara terminologinya, taubat mencakupi tiga syarat :

Pertama, meninggalkan percubaan dosa.
Kedua, menyesali perbuatan yang telah melakukannya.
Ketika, bertekad tidak akan melakukannya kembali.

Taubat adalah sebuah kata yang sangat sederhana, akan tetapi tindakan ke arahnya bukanlah pekerjaan yang mudah. Banyak orang pada mulanya bersemangat mahu mengakhiri segala perbuatan dosanya. Tetapi akibat balutan noda itu terlalu pekat, selalu keinginan mengalami kegagalan untuk bertaubat. Hanya mereka yang mempunyai semangat tinggi dan tekad yang kuat serta mendapat petunjuk daripada Allah SWT yang segera melangkah kaki menuju pintu taubat

Setiap daripada kita selagi bergelar manusia, memang tidak boleh lepas daripada perbuatan dosa. Sayangnya, kadang-kadang diantara tompokan dosa-dosa itu, kita merasakan bahawa semuanya sudah terlambat untuk dibersihkan atau dihilangkan.

Perasaan seperti ini jelas keliru. Jika kita masih tidak yakin bahawa Tuhan itu Maha Pengampun, kita boleh terejerumus lagi ke dalam dosa besar iaitu berputus-asa dari rahmat Allah SWT.

Dosa yang ada sudah tidak tertanggung, jangan sampa kita menambah bilangan dosa itu dengan perasaan tidak yakin pada rahmat Allah SWT. Syaitan memang suka jika kita terus berputus-asa dan menjauhkan diri daripada melakukan taubat, Bagi syaitan inilah kesempatan yang paling disukai untuk dimanfaatkan. Syaitan berupaya mendorong kita untuk terus berputus asa seterusnya kita semakin terjerumus dalam pujuk rayunya.

Allah SWT ferfirman, "..... dan janganlah kamu mengikuti langkah-langkah syaitan; kerana sesungguhnya syaitan itu adalah musuh yang nyata bagimu." (QS Al Baqarah: 168).

Selanjutnya Allah menjelaskan : "Barangsiapa yang mengikuti langkah-langkah syaitan, maka sesungguhnya syaitan itu menyuruh mengerjakan yang keji dan yang mungkar." (QS 24:21)

Kalau kita terus hanyut dalam pujuk rayu syaitan, akhirnya melahirkan sikap lain bersikap negatif. Kita langsung tidak dapat berfikir secara rasional malah menganggap semua perbuatan itu sudah terlanjur atau nasi sudah menjadi bubur, Perasaan kita berkecamauk, seolah-olah semua dosa itu tidak ada harapan diampunkan. Orang yang membiarkan dirinya ada dalam keadaan seperti itu akan terus tercampak dalam perbuatan dosa dan kemaksiatan yang semakin jauh dan dalam. Tentu sikap seperti itu kesannya sangat buruk bagi individu yang bersangkutan.

Adanya perinsip taubat, maka dapat dijelaskan bahawa syariat taubat merupakan bentuk rahmat Allah SWT yang tidak terhingga untuk umat manusia. Al-Quran menjelaskan keutamaan taubat ini agar jiwa manusia kembali kepada jalan kesucian.

Bawa-bawalah sedar diri bahawa kita sekarang sedang berburu dengan waktu dan usia. Orang yang bertaubat secara ikhlas dan sedar akan berusaha mengisi hidupnya daripada kebaikan kepada kebaikan. Ketika kaki melangkah ke pintu taubat, kemudian tergelincir (kembali) dalam perbuatan dosa, maka segeralah betulkan langkah. Kembalilah semula ke jalan Allah.

Tidak ada alasan untuk tidak kembali ke hadapanNya dengan penuh permohonan ampun. Sebab ampunan Allah SWT maha luas. tidak peduli seberapa besar dan beratnya dosa yang kita lakukan. Ibaratnya jika kita telah melakukan kemaksiatan seluas lautan, maka ampuanan Allah melebihi luasnya langit dan bumi.

"Dan bersegeralah menuju ampunan Tuahanmu dan syurga yang luasnya seluas langit dan bumi, disediakan bai orang-orang yang bertakwa." (Ali Imran: 133)

Semuga kita tergolong orang-orang yang mampu menyesali masa lalu yang buruk dan menjadi ahli taubat. Kita berdoa agar Tuhan tidak palingkan hati kita setelah diberi taufik dan hidayah ke dalam hati nurani kita. Kita berharap sungguh-sungguh semuga Tuhan tidak campakkan kita ke dalam nerakaNya walau sesaat. Jangan sampai kita terdengar raungan penghuni isi neraka, jangan sampai kita terlihat seksaannNya.

"Ya Allah Tuhanku Yang Satu, sesungguhnya aku tidak layak masuk ke syurga Mu. Namun aku takut untuk ke naraka Mu. Oleh itu, aku mohon kasih sayang dan rahmat Mu Ya Tuhan. Agar dapat aku berkumpul bersama rombongan kekasih Mu, Rasulullah s.a.w. Agar aku dapat terus ke syurga Mu tanpa di hisab! Tanpa di hisab! Tanpa di hisab!.."

Amin ya Rabbulalamin.

Dipetik dari Majalah Midi keluaran 15 April 2011.

JEMPUTLAH

2012-01-22T13:46:00.000+08:00

"Ya Allah, aku mohon keampunan Mu atas semua dosa-dosaku. Terimalah taubatku ini. Peliharalah aibku ini. Sesungguhnya aku amat menyesali segala perbuatan burukku. Aku telah menzalimi diriku sendiri. Sebanyak mana pun air di laut dan hujan di langit, tidak akan dapat membasuh semua dosa-dosaku ini, jika tanpa izin Mu. Sesungguhnya, Engkaulah yang Maha Pengampun. Limpahkan rahmat ampunan Mu ke atas ku. Ya Allah, jangan ambil nyawaku selagi tidak terhapus dan diampunkan dosa-dosaku. Aku ingin kembali dalam keadaan fitrah yang bersih putih. Jemputlah aku ke rumah Mu ketika ada rezeki kesihatan, rezeki kewangan dan rezeki kelapangan. Jemputlah aku! Jemputlah aku! Jemputlah!....."

24 Beautiful one liners Islamic Quotes

2012-01-20T16:43:00.000+08:00

1) Give Allah what’s right, not what’s left.

2) Man’s way leads to a hopeless end Allah’s way leads to an endless hope.

3) A lot of kneeling will keep you in good standing.

4) He who kneels before Allah can stand before anyone.

5) In the sentence of life, the devil may be a comma, but never let him be the full stop.

6) Don’t put a question mark where Allah puts a full stop.

7) Are you wrinkled with burden? Come to the mosque for a face lift.

8) When praying, don’t give Allah instructions, just report for duty.

9) Don’t wait for six strong men to take you to the mosque.(FOR YOUR JANAZAAH)

10) We don’t change Allah’s message His message changes us.

11) The mosque is prayer-conditioned.

12) When Allah ordains, He sustains.

13) Plan ahead It wasn’t raining when Noah built the ark.

14) Most people want to serve Allah, but only in an advisory position.

15) Suffering from truth decay? Brush up on your Qur’an.

16) Exercise daily Walk with Allah.

17) Never give the devil a ride He will always want to drive.

18) Nothing else ruins the truth like stretching it.

19) Compassion is difficult to give away because it keeps coming back.

20) He, who angers you, controls you.

21) Worry is the darkroom in which negatives are developed.

22) Give Shaytaan an inch and he will be a ruler.

23) Allah doesn’t call the qualified He qualifies the called.

24) Read the Qur’an It will show u how simple life can be.

http://islamgreatreligion.wordpress.com/2009/11/30/24-beautiful-one-liners-islamic-quotes/

TODAY'S BEAUTIFUL SAYING COLLECTIONS

2012-01-20T14:27:00.000+08:00

“This is my wish for you: Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, Love to complete your life.”

“What makes life worth living is knowing that one day you'll wake up and find the person that makes you happier than anything in the whole world. So don't ever lose hope and give up, everything turns out okay and the good guy always wins.”

I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.”

“One day at a time--this is enough. Do not look back and grieve over the past for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful it will be worth remembering.”

“God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.”

“Experience: that most brutal of teachers. But you learn, my God do you learn.”

“One life is all we have and we live it as we believe in living it. But to sacrifice what you are and to live without belief, that is a fate more terrible than dying.”

“This life is yours. Take the power to choose what you want to do and do it well. Take the power to love what you want in life and love it honestly. Take the power to walk in the forest and be a part of nature. Take the power to control your own life. No one else can do it for you. Take the power to make your life happy.”

“Life is short, don't waste time worrying about what people think of you Hold on to the ones that care, in the end they will be the only ones there.”

“Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are.”

“Promise me you'll always remember: You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.

“You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see, but you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel.”

“Only as high as I reach can I grow, only as far as I seek can I go, only as deep as I look can I see, only as much as I dream can I be.”

“A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out.”

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”

“Always remember to slow down in life; live, breathe, and learn; take a look around you whenever you have time and never forget everything and every person that has the least place within your heart.”

“Kiss your life. Accept it, just as it is. Today. Now. So that those moments of happiness you're waiting for don't pass you by.”

Every Journey Starts With One Single Step

2012-01-20T13:59:00.000+08:00

Everyone knows the old sayings, "One Step Forward, One Step At A Time". How about when we were babies and our parents could not wait for us to take that First Step.

That first step that we as babies took, was the start of our lives. We are then on our way to many different aspects of life and never stop walking. Some of us walk a straight line and become very successful people, and then there are those that walk down the wrong path in life.

Every journey starts with one single step and that step is a very important one for all of us. That first step could determine whether we head in the right or wrong direction in life.

This takes me to talking about finding the road to sobriety and why we hesitate to take that first step towards it.

Are we afraid to take it because of fear of falling or are we afraid to walk away from our addiction because we fear of not being able to survive without our crutch to lean on?

It could be both in many cases. If you are afraid of falling like you were when you were a baby that won't happen because we are now adults and quite capable of standing on our own two feet.

As far as surviving without a crutch to lean on, that is fixable also, ONLY if you want it to be. We need to stand up to our demons and surrender to them. Only then will we be able to take that first step towards the road to recovery.

I know many people, including myself that were so afraid to take that first step so we wind up standing in the same spot for a very long time and many times stepping backwards.

No one wants to go backwards in life. So whats stopping us from moving forward to a better life and seeing the world as it should be? FEAR is the main reason for us to hesitate on making that move.

What are we going to do about it? I for one made my mind up and finally admitted that I had an alcohol addiction. My question to myself was, "How was I going to correct this problem"? The first thing that I did was to change my outlook on life and how I saw myself and others as well.

Secondly, I changed my negativity of my life to one hundred percent Positivity. Having a Positive Attitude in life can make a huge difference in your success, not only with becoming clean and sober, but anything that life throws your way..

You will never achieve anything in life being and thinking negative.

By the clean life

How to khusyuk in Solat (Prayer)?

2012-01-12T16:31:00.000+08:00

Khushu means full concentration towards Allah during your prayers. Try to follow the following advice of how to perform salat. Hopefully if you learn to concentrate towards the words of Allah in Quran with full understanding their meanings, you will develop Khushu:

Minds of all of us wander during our Salats. Thinking about improving our concentration during Salat is itself a sign of higher level of Eiman. Following are my suggestions for you. It works for me and those whom I taught my method to concentrate during Salat wrote that it helps them too.

First of all you not only memorize the Arabic text of Surahs from Quran what you are recite during your Salat YOU MUST also learn meanings of Saurah Al-Fatiha in which you talk to Allah. So you talk to Allah from the bottom of your heart with full understanding of what you are saying to Allah. Same way you must understand true meanings of Ayahs of Quran which means you understand what Allah is saying to you also.

Secondly when you perform Salat by yourself alone in your closed room, raise your voice so you can hear yourself. It will block other thoughts coming into your mind during your Salat, This will help you concentrate in your recitation of Quranic Ayahs and you will be conscious of what you are saying to Allah.

If you can do this you will notice that hair on your hands and body will rise, some times a wave flows from head down towards your feet, some times your body will shiver a little understanding the meanings of what you recite. Best thing that you will experience is that tears start coming from your eyes. Believe me then you have established contact with Allah and He is close to you, hearing you and accepting your slat with smile.

If this happens to you even once a week you are doing good and Allah may reward you Jannah as long as you stay away from sinning of any kind.

Remember Allah forgives your minor sins with every Salat you perform, with every hair of your body rise in joy of your prayers and for every tear that drops from your eyes during your salats.

Prophet SAW used to take few seconds between the two Sujuds and never rushed into going in second Sajdah. Once Sahabas questioned Prophet SAW whether he makes some dua between two Sujuds when he sits up after first Sajdah. Prophet SAW replied, yes I say
"Astaghfirullah min kulle zambi wa a tube Eleh".

Prophet SAW once said Allah SWT will throw Salats of some people back on their faces who make two Sujuds during their Salats like chicken quickly pick grains from ground. Many men do not even fully sit straight and quickly go into second Sajdah.

We all commit minor sins even without knowing ourselves and Angeles keep writing in our book of deeds. If you make a habit of saying this little dua between two Sujud, think how many times you do Istaghfar to Allah for your minor sins during five daily prayers. You will have no sins left in your record if you make it a habit of saying this short prayer that takes only a second or two.

May Allah guide us all on to the straight path of Islam
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“It is strange that the thoughts keeping recurring with every Salah, and some people travel far away while standing between Allah’s hands. If one were standing before a person of authority, he or she would devote more attention to what is being said and done. The audience would not miss a single word uttered, and every thought would be held under control. As for the Salah, do the people perform it from beginning to end without losing concentration and thinking about other things? Surely, only those who have earned Allah’s Mercy perform the prayer perfectly in every respect.

If one’s time and devotion were reserved for Allah Alone, Allah would suffice for him concerning all of his needs. Allah will surely relieve one’s concern in this case and will fill his heart with love of Him and dedicate his tongue to the remembrance of Him. In contrast to the one whose sole concern and dedication is this life and its affairs. In such a case, Allah will make him dependant on himself, and thus, he will carry the burden of his concerns, sadness, and grief alone. This person’s heart is not immersed in love of Allah because it is too busy in loving the creation, and his tongue is not busy remembering Allah, because he only remembers the creation. He dedicates his energy to other than the obedience of Allah by serving the creation instead, striving hard in such a cause, as a beast of burden would do in the service of others” – Al Fawaid, by Ibn Al-Qayyim, p110.

FAHAMI BACAAN DALAM SOLAT

2012-01-10T13:55:00.000+08:00

Ada orang dah solat berpuluh tahun, tapi masih tak tahu maksud atau makna bacaan dalam solat yang diorang buat (ramai sebenarnya). Tak hairan la kalau tak kusyuk dalam sembahyang. Oleh itu, marilah kita renung-renungkan dan paham-pahamkan setiap rangkap yang kita sebut sewaktu kita solat.

Takbiratul-Ihram / Takbir :-Allah Maha Besar.

Doa Iftitah:-Allah Maha Besar dan segala puji bagi Allah dengan banyaknya. Maha suci Allah sepanjang pagi dan petang. Aku hadapkan wajahku bagi Tuhan yang mencipta langit dan bumi, dengan suasana lurus dan berserah diri dan aku bukan dari golongan orang musyrik. Sesungguhnya solatku, ibadatku, hidupku, matiku adalah untuk Allah Tuhan sekelian alam. Tidak ada sekutu bagiNya dan kepadaku diperintahkan untuk tidak menyekutukan bagiNya dan aku dari golongan orang Islam.

Al-Fatihah:-Dengan nama Allah yang maha Pemurah lagi maha Mengasihani. Segala puji bagi Allah, Tuhan semesta alam. Yang maha pemurah lagi maha mengasihani. Yang menguasai hari pembalasan. Hanya Engkaulah yang kami sembah dan hanya kepada Engkau kami mohon pertolongan. Tunjukilah kami jalan yang lurus. Iaitu jalan orang-orang yang Engkau kurniakan nikmat kepada mereka, bukan jalan mereka yang Engkau murkai dan bukan jalan mereka yang sesat.

Bacaan Ketika Rukuk:-Maha Suci TuhanKu Yang Maha Besar dan dengan segala puji-pujiannya.

Bacaan Ketika Bangun Dari Rukuk:-Allah mendengar pujian orang yang memujinya.

Bacaan Ketika Iktidal:-Wahai Tuhan kami bagi Engkaulah segala pujian.

Bacaan Ketika Sujud:-Maha suci TuhanKu yang Maha Tinggi dan dengan segala puji-pujiannya.

Bacaan Ketika Duduk Di Antara Dua Sujud:-Ya Allah, ampunilah dosaku dan rahmatilah daku, lindungilah daku, angkatlah darjatku, rezekikan daku, berilah aku petunjuk, selamatkanlah daku dan maafkanlah akan daku.

Bacaan Ketika Tahiyat Awal:-Segala penghormatan yang berkat solat yang baik adalah untuk Allah. Sejahtera atas engkau wahai Nabi dan rahmat Allah serta keberkatannya. Sejahtera ke atas kami dan atas hamba-hamba Allah yang soleh. Aku naik saksi bahawa tiada Tuhan melainkan Allah dan aku naik saksi bahawasanya Muhammad itu adalah pesuruh Allah. Ya Tuhan kami, selawatkanlah ke atas Nabi Muhammad.

Bacaan ketika Tahiyat Akhir:-Segala penghormatan yang berkat solat yang baik adalah untuk Allah. Sejahtera atas engkau wahai Nabi dan rahmat Allah serta keberkatannya. Sejahtera ke atas kami dan atas hamba-hamba Allah yang soleh. Aku naik saksi bahawa tiada Tuhan melainkan Allah dan aku naik saksi bahawasanya Muhammad itu adalah pesuruh Allah. Ya Tuhan kami, selawatkanlah ke atas Nabi Muhammad dan ke atas keluarganya. Sebagaimana Engkau selawatkan ke atas Ibrahim dan atas keluarga Ibrahim. Berkatilah ke atas Muhammad dan atas keluarganya sebagaimana Engkau berkati ke atas Ibrahim dan atas keluarga Ibrahim di dalam alam ini. Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Terpuji lagi Maha Agung.

Doa Qunut:-Ya Allah, berilah aku petunjuk sebagaimana orang-orang yang telah Engkau tunjuki. Sejahterakanlah aku sebagaimana orang-orang yang telah Engkau sejahterakan. Pimpinlah aku sebagaimana orang-orang yang telah Engkau pimpin. Berkatilah hendaknya untukku apa-pa yang telah Engkau berikan padaku. Jauhkanlah aku daripada segala kejahatan yang telah Engkau tetapkan. Sesungguhnya hanya Engkau sahajalah yang menetapkan, dan tidak sesiapapun yang berkuasa menetapkan sesuatu selain daripada Engkau. Sesungguhnya tidak terhina orang yang memperolehi pimpinanMu. Dan tidak mulia orang-orang yang Engkau musuhi. Telah memberi berkat Engkau, ya Tuhan kami dan maha tinggi Engkau. Hanya untuk Engkau sahajalah segala macam puji terhadap apa-apa yang telah Engkau tetapkan. Dan aku minta ampun dan bertaubat kepada Engkau. Dan Allah rahmatilah Muhammad, Nabi yang ummi dan sejahtera keatas keluarganya dan sahabatsahabatnya. Salam Sejahtera ke atas kamu berserta rahmat Allah.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAYANG - 8/1/12

2012-01-08T17:01:00.000+08:00

8th January 1985, 27 years ago, a child, a baby girl was born from the womb of this woman, when she was only 21 years old.

Today, this is the child, an angel to her mother's eyes. My heart and soul, my enemy my bestfriend She is 27 years old now, a woman but still she is only a baby & will always be the only baby to her mother.

She found her man, someone to share her life with. The man who become her husband. Mum pray, hopefully this is matching made in heaven.

May Allah bless my dearest baby, my only child, my angel with happiness, strength & faith thru the years.

I'm so grateful that I have you as a daughter.

No matter how many birthdays come and go, you'll always be my little girl.

You grow sweeter with each passing year.

I'm so glad that God gave me a daughter like you.

I'm so proud to have you as a daughter.

Happy Birthday to our pride and joy.

Happy birthday to a wonderful daughter and a great friend.

You are my one true treasure.

Happy Birthday Daughter.

I see a little more of me in you with each passing year.

Thanks for bringing so much joy into our lives each and every single day.

Wishing the sweetest girl the sweetest birthday.

BUKAN SEMATA PERASAAN

2012-01-03T16:18:00.000+08:00

Dipetik dari http://ummuhusna99.blogspot.com/

Sungguhpun jiwanya pedih saat mengetahui perkahwinan kedua suami, namun dia menerima dengan pasrah segala ketentuan Yang Maha Esa.

Sedangkan…..

Setiap saat guruh di langit berdentum hebat, tika bumi hampir bah ditimpa hujan lebat, dia memandang ke langit yang tinggi, menadah tangan ke hadrat ILAHI agar suami yang jauh dari mata kerana bekerja di perantauan selamat dan terpelihara dari sebarang bencana.

Bila ditanya mengapa dia pasrah menerima semua itu, dengan tenang dia menutur bicara :

“Kerana bernikah lagi secara sah menurut hukum agama, bukanlah satu perkara aib.”

Dia diasak lagi dengan persoalan yang menyentuh riak rasanya sebagai seorang wanita; sekali lagi, dia menjawab dengan jiwa kental seorang muslimah mukminah solehah :

“Selama ini saya tidak lelah berdoa kepada ALLAH, memohon supaya suami dipelihara oleh-NYA…lantas, bila mengetahui suami berkahwin lagi, membuatkan saya berfikir, jangan-jangan…..dengan suami bernikah kedua kali ini, adalah cara ALLAH mengabulkan doa saya, menjaga suami dari melakukan maksiat, atau supaya suami saya ada yang merawat nun jauh di perantauan sana…”

MasyaALLAH!

BUKAN SEMATA PERASAAN

Sahabat-sahabat, sebagai wanita@perempuan, kita dibekalkan oleh ALLAH SWT dengan kelebihan emosi dan perasaan. Dengannya kita mampu menananggung sakit ketika melahirkan, kita juga mampu bersabar dengan tangisan dan 'perangai' anak-anak yang berencam, dan pelbagai lagi 'mampu' yang terhasil dari kelebihan kurniaan-NYA ini.

Akan tetapi, ingin kuperingatkan diriku dan diri kalian, sahabat-sahabat yang kusayangi atas nama TUHAN Yang Maha Pengasih LAGI Maha Penyayang,

Banyak ketikanya, perasaan dan emosi ini jugalah yang mengeheret kita kepada lembah kedukaan. Cemburu melulu, ambil berat yang melebihi perlu, iri dan dengki bersatu hingga ada saatnya, ia umpama ledakan gunung berapi; menghambur lava amarah yang amat panas lalu melebur cinta dan belas kasihan menjadi debu berterbangan.

Kala itu, hidup dirundung duka hingga kolam matamu menumpahkan air jernih yang bertali arus.....dan saat itu, perasaan serta emosi bukan lagi aset berharga yang menjadikan dirimu istimewa.

Yakinilah....perasaan dan emosi perempuan tidak cukup untuk menjadikan dirimu teguh mendepani hari mendatang kerana rasa reda dan pasrah terhadap takdir-NYA tidak akan pernah mampu ditatang dengan semata perasaan dan emosi perempuan, tetapi ujian dan kedukaan yang menimpa itu mampu dipempan sebaiknya oleh perasaan yang dipatri kekuatannya dengan iman dan ketaqwaan.

Justeru, binalah benteng imanmu kala matahari memancar indah, ketika tawa dan riang masih mengulit kehidupan sebelum datang awan mendung yang menumpahkan hujan lebat, kerana ketika itu, hanya dengan benteng iman yang teguh dapat melindungi dirimu dari hanyut dan lemas dek limpahan banjir yang tidak mengenal belas.

Kita sebenarnya sentiasa diuji, baik ia berwajah gembira atau ia tiba dalam rupa sengsara....namun di akhirnya, hanya pemilik emosi yang tunduk pada Yang Maha Pencipta sahaja akan muncul sebagai juara!

Muhasabah bersama...

Mencari dan terus mencari cinta ILAHI.

Jumpa lagi, InsyaALLAH.

MUHASABAH DIRI

2012-01-03T15:12:00.001+08:00

Ya Allah, di setiap sendi kehidupan kami sering berlaku seperti orang yang tidak punya keimanan dan keyakinan tentang keberadaan Engkau ya Allah.
Lihat saja, mata kami 'buta', tidak bisa melihat kebesaran-Mu dan kekuasaan-Mu dalam kehidupan ini.
Sebab nyatanya kami berlaku dosa tanpa peduli bahwa Engkau Melihat.
Sebab kami berlaku salah tanpa peduli padahal Engkau Teramat Mengetahui.

Ya Allah, demikian pula adanya bila kami berhadapan dengan kesusahan dan penderitaan.
Bukannya kami adukan permasalahan kepada Engkau, malah kami larikan kepada Tuhan lain selain Engkau, yang sebenarnya tidak ada.
Kami cari solusi dengan bukan cara-Mu.

Inikah sebagian tanda orang yang beriman?
Inikah sebagian tanda orang yang yakin?
Kami sadar sikap dan sifat kami bukan sifat dan sikap yang tumbuh dari keimanan dan keyakinan.
Untuk itu kami mohon maaf di setiap langkah kami yang salah,
kami mohon maaf di setiap langkah kami yang buruk,
dan kami minta Engkau gantikan dengan kebaikan-kebaikan.

Kini saatnya kami tidak bercanda dalam kehidupan,
yakni manakalah kami bisa menempatkan wajah-Mu,
Dzat-Mu dalam setiap sendi kehidupan kami.

Oleh: Ustadz Yusuf Mansur

dipetik dari http://www.mojokertocyber.com/al-islam/697-muhasabah-diri

FROM 2011 TO 2012

2012-01-02T12:47:00.001+08:00

Hari ini dah 2/1/2012. Alhamdullillah, dgn izinNya, masih diberi kesempatan utk menjalani kehidupan ini. Semalam kedatangan 2012 disambut bersama kawan sekolah!. Actually not really, we just want to get together with those yg x attend on 17/12/11 reunion aritu. Ok ler, wlwpn x ramai. But i am a bit frustrated with the venue yg i choose. It was supposed to be hi-tea buffet, but food were so little not much choice & frankly not nice at all. That was it, will be the 1st & the last. I ate a little portion only. I felt so guilty for organising the occasion at Sultani Resto Flamingo Hotel. Anyway, luckily the companies were fun. X ramai pun, only 11 of us... but still I enjoy every single moment, hopefully others feel the same. Yang datang, Jenal, Dibah, Zarimah, Norsham, Ani, Marizan, Nik Kamaruzaman, Safar & wife & Hamzah... spt biasa, photography session is a must for us.

Lepas Flamingo, kitaorg lepak lg kat Pelita Ampang Point.... x puas je klu dh jumpa. Makan lg.....

So about last year! Ok everything went well for me.... All sweet memories aje yg tercatat di tahun 2012. Yang indah2 belaka....tp ada jg ler hiccup sikit2..

1/4/11 = My one & only child got married, meaning dat a new member to my small family & extended big family. Alhamdullillah.... And i started adepting to my life, being alone at home.... Alhamdullillah, so far so good.

Enrolled myself to kelas tajwid & Pengajian Syariah too.... learning never end....

Oh yeah, lupa, i received a M proposal end of the 2011, but then i guess i am not ready for that yet, yet or ever, only Allah knows. Anyway thanks to the proposer!

Terlupa lagi : I let go of my Satria, bye2 my dearest good friend & got a new friend WWE 8185 dearest Swifty on 15/12/11.

Hiccup = Work, feel less motivated, lazy..... i have to overcome this in year 2012.

So welcome 2012, i hope my plan of doing master programme will be realized this year. Dah one year postponed, x blh jadi....

Other things : I am happy with my life now, Alhamdullillah...

Alone but not lonely

Alone but not sad

Alone but not miserable

Alone but not desperate

Alone but happy

Alone but fullfilling

Alone but contented

Alone but peaceful

SOMEONE LIKE YOU

2011-12-31T11:51:00.000+08:00

I heard that you're settled down
That you found a girl and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.

Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I begged
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead, "
Yeah

You'd know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I'd hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I begged
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."
Yeah

Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They are memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you
Don't forget me, I begged
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I begged
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

RENUNGAN UNTUK KU

2011-12-30T12:36:00.000+08:00

Sekejap sekejap saja

December 29, 2011 by nurjeehan

Renungan buat diriku..

‘Usahlah kau menagih belas kasihan dari manusia,
kerana belas kasihannya sekejap sekejap saja.

Bila kau sebatang kara dan menangis,
mungkin manusia akan mendengar keluhanmu,
tapi sekejap sekejap saja.

Mereka akan bosan pada satu ketika,
kerana itulah tabiat manusia.

Kecuali mereka yang telah dikurniakan rahmat pada jiwa-jiwanya. (Quran, 12:53)

Palingkan wajahmu hanya kepada Dia -yang lebih dekat dari urat lehermu,
yang lebih Menyayangi dan Mengasihanimu..
walaupun kau sering saja lupa taat, sujud dan bersyukur
di atas segala nikmat-Nya,
yang telah zahir kepadamu mahupun tersembunyi
..bahkan kau selalu saja derhaka dan bermaksiat kepada-Nya.

Jika sedikit ditarik nikmat-Nya,
kau pasti terduduk, ternganga.

Tiada manusia yang terlalu gagah untuk hidup tanpa Allah.
Pesan Nabi yang mulia (SAW) jangan kau zalimi diri,
jangan kau zalimi orang yang lemah,
kerana Yang Membalas dan Pembelanya adalah Allah.
Al-Jabbar, Yang Maha Gagah

Bila sakit, ingat.
Bila suka, lupa.

Sedarlah.
Malulah.
Beradablah kepada Allah.

Sebelum berakhir perjanjian,
antara jasad dan jiwa.’

Duhai Tuhan Pemilik Arasy yang Agung,
kepada-Mu kuserah jiwa dan raga,
Apa yang telah Kau tetapkan sebagai anugerah,
akan tetap sebagai anugerah.
Tanpa-Mu aku kan hilang segala-galanya.
Pandangan Kasih dan Rahmat-Mu, yang kurayu dan kudamba,
sehingga ke penghujung nyawa.

P.S. Memandang dia, aku pun ingat pada-Nya. Dan cinta pada Sang Pencipta, yang menjadikan aku sebagaimana adanya, semakin membening. Subhanallah, Maha Besar Engkau ya Rabb, yang telah memberi anugerah pertemuanku dengan hamba-Mu ini. Kekalkanlah persaudaraan kami, dalam mulianya budi pekerti dan murninya ikhlas – fi sabilillah sehingga ke syurga-Mu, selamanya. (Amin ya Allah)

TWISTED SOUL

2011-12-29T13:59:00.000+08:00

The hate that pours out of your mouth
Cuts deep into my skin but yet there's no traces of blood
The words you say out of love
All I ever hear is your rage

The bitterness and anger of a spiteful man
Who is to blame for the desire to cause such pain
I'm left here alone wandering down a path
The road that's less traveled with nothing but broken gravel

Yet I do not feel as though I am lost
I'll find the my way back home
Piece by piece my world has come undone
Time will put it all back together once again
I've done it one too many times and I feel as if I'm too old
Silence has fallen and the air is so cold
I wake up under water, out of breath, so cold I whisper
If I could just breathe it would all come to an end
I tell myself this is just a wicked dream and let out a sigh
This is not what I chose, these smoke filled lies
All I can hear are the lonely cries
Shattered innocence of the girl with the lost soul
It's all twisted and I can't see with all this distortion
Will I ever find my way

The sun has risen but yet it is not a new day
It has been over and with that my soul has been set free
Unchained to wander and find my own way
I let out a deep breath and know it has all just begun
Published by Beverly Aycock

THE VOICE OF MY HEART

2011-12-28T21:36:00.000+08:00

Bukan sengaja... tp nk buat macamana, hati x berapa berkenan. Dan perasaan yg ada ni jika dipaksa gini lah jdnya. Being alone for so many years, i am a very independent person. Cos everything in my life, i decided on my own. X pandai dh nak mengadu, bermanja, unless benar2 tersepit baru ler i ask for help. If not i just leave it like dat. Me, not the kind of person yg suka menyusahkan org.

So bila someone appear in my life, trying too hard to impress me, when i already indicate a NO sign, its suffocated me. I feel my privacy dah diceroboh. Lemas bila org x faham, wat was mentioned earlier.... it will really push me away & i just want to get away from that person. So i did wat i have to do... sorry la, if he found it very cruel. But it is for the best, sbb takut lama2 nnti i became rude & jd sarcastic pulak. X nak lah kan camtu kan.

I wish him all the best, may he find someone who will make him happier than now.

Me... i am who i am... this is my choice of life. At the moment i choose to remain single and be by myself.

Alone but not lonely

Alone but not sad

Alone but not desperate

Alone but not miserable

Alone i love it

XTI 8081 3 DEKAD REUNION - SIRI 2

2011-12-27T14:58:00.000+08:00

Sambungan dari 1st posting.....

Ok, after d dinner, we all pakat2 nk pi bowling pulak. Midnite bowling. When we reach the bowling alley it was around 11.30 pm, masa nk masuk, berpusu2 yg muda2 keluar & we all yg kureng muda pulak masok. Nk tergelak pun ada, sbb yg tua2 main tgh2 malam. Anyway we had a good time... me, mmg baling bola bowling aje... asyik masuk longkang aje... almaklum dh lama betul x main bowling ni... skill yg ada sesikit dulu langsung hilang entah ke mana... hentam aje lah.... it was supposed to be a competition among us... so yg menang mlm tu Azis Arshat & Dibah....

Lepas bowling, x cukup2 lg... pi mengeteh pulak. Masa tu dh pkl 2 pg.... sempat pekena nasi goreng lg... yelah masa dinner tu, x sempat nk really menikmati food, nak berborak aje. Dah tengah malam baru rasa lapar, so makan ler lg sambil sembang2. Mata dah half open, esk nak bangun pg, nak ke sekolah, breakfast, lunch & ada aktiviti tanam pokok pulak kat sana.

After supper, balik apartment tido. Tu pun dh pukul 3.30 pg... esok nk ke sekolah pulak.

9.30 am kami berkumpul di lobby, utk ke sekolah. Sampai kat sekolah, we had breakfast kat kantin. Not the old canteen. Canteen lama dh x de... Not bad jg school food. Bertambah aku makan mihun goreng dia.

sebelum ke sekolah sempat berposing dulu

Lepas breakfast, sesi melawat kelas, asrama, bengkel & tpt2 bersejarah pun bermula. Dari satu kelas ke satu kelas. Ke bengkel, ke makmal, sempat pulak naik ke puncak dewan sekolah utk bergambar. Ini perkara yg x pernah & x dpt dilakukan oleh pelajar2 perempuan dahulu.

Lepas site visit, we had lunch togather at the canteen again. Masak lemak nenas dgn ikan masin, ulam-ulaman, ayam goreng & apa lg ye, lupa dah.

Lepas makan, we had majlis suaikenal, each of us tell a bit about ourselves. Finally it's time to say goodbye. After 30 years of SPM, we met and now being apart again. Sad, happy, macam2 perasaan yg bercampur. So we decided the next reunion will be in 2012 when all of us will be 50. Our 5 series reunion.

Hopefully to see everyone again in 2014 and those yg x de this reunion can be there. Sebenarnya rasa sekejap sgt bersua-muka, mmg x puas lah!

My special thanks to our dearest friend, who has been working really hard to make sure this event materialised. You did a good job Hazmal.

Bye, bye TI Kuantan

XTI 8081 REUNION 3 DEKAD

2011-12-20T15:48:00.000+08:00

So it was set on 17-18 Dec. 2011. Early morning we met-up at my office, me, dibah, zarimah, ein and hamzah around 8.30am Saturday. We all tumpang hamzah, ni last minute arrangement sbb tiba2 hamzah nk pegi & was calling for car pool. We had breakfast nasi berlauk at lembah keramat. After dat we shoot to Kuantan. Along the way, on & off adalah hujan sikit. We reach Kuantan around 12.00pm... cari keropok lekor and terus ke apartment. On the way to apartment, we all lalu jalan teluk cempedak, byk nostalgia di sepanjang jalan ini. Yelah, hari minggu berjogging dr hostel ke teluk cempedak. That was 30 years ago, tp masih segar dlm ingatan.

Sampai kat apartment, nmpk Hazmal, Hadzori tgh sibuk kat registration area. Apalg, kita org letak bag aje, nyibuk jg ler.... register nama & yg best put up our fingers print on a big banner & with our class pix on it.... so touched actually. From my class i was the first & i put my print on the top...

Then we lepak2 borak2 till YDP Kuantan Dato' Zul came (he was our schoolmate too). He took us to his official residence, a very big house & yes really nice.

Dato' Zul sempat juga bawa kitaorg ronda2 TI kejap, sempat ler mengimbas kembali zaman persekolahan.

Balik ke apartment, tgk2 ada serawa durian, ada sahabat yg bermurah hati bawa serawa durian. Apalagi mmg kami semua lapar, smbil berborak, bergelak ketawa, perut di isi, cicah dgn roti... yummy.

Around 5.00pm mata dh ngantuk, nk solat, mandi. The apartment got three rooms, simple but cozy & nice.

8.00 pm, we all turun ke dinner area... dh ramai dah masa tu. Seronok, amik2 gambar, posing2, berborak dgn bermacam2 cerita. Yang bestnya melihat perubahan fizikal pada diri masing2. Ada yg botak, perut gendut, badan kembang, rambut putih, janggut putih, kurus keremping. Yang pasti kami semua sudah di makan usia. Tapi ada jg yg maintain muda & tetap hensem macam Zainalkifle, Baharuddin & me terbalik masa sekolah gedempol now slim-mlim.

Ada yang datang sendirian macam kitaorg & some brought their family along. Maka majlis bermula & riuh-rendah lah dining area tu. Cikgu2 juga hadir Ms Sumam, Mr Gan, Mr Leong, Mr Chandra, Mr Kamaruddin & Mr Isa (both of them look much younger than us). "Cikgu apa rahsia awet muda cikgu ni, mai lah share."(who teaches us & special guest headmaster after our years & present headmaster. (Let's the pictures speaks thousand words):-

LET'S LEARN ENGLISH!

2011-12-15T16:26:00.001+08:00

1) The bandage was wound around the wound.

2) The farm was used to produce produce .

3) The dump was so full that it had to refuse more refuse.

4) We must polish the Polish furniture.

5) He could lead if he would get the lead out.

6) The soldier decided to desert his dessert in the desert.

7) Since there is no time like the present, he thought it was time to present the present

8) A bass was painted on the head of the bass drum.

9) When shot at, the dove dove into the bushes.

10) I did not object to the object.

11) The insurance was invalid for the invalid.

12) There was a row among the oarsmen about how to row

13) They were too close to the door to close it.

14) The buck does funny things when the does are present.

15) A seamstress and a sewer fell down into a sewer line.

16) To help with planting, the farmer taught his sow to sow.

17) The wind was too strong to wind the sail.

18) Upon seeing the tear in the painting I shed a tear.

19) I had to subject the subject to a series of tests.

20) How can I intimate this to my most intimate friend?

Let's face it - English is a crazy language. There is no egg in eggplant, nor ham in hamburger; neither apple nor pine in pineapple. English muffins weren't invented in England or French fries in France. Sweetmeats are candies while sweetbreads, which aren't sweet, are meat. We take English for granted. But if we explore its paradoxes, we find that quicksand can work slowly, boxing rings are square and a guinea pig is neither from Guinea nor is it a pig.

And why is it that writers write but fingers don't fing, grocers don't groce and hammers don't ham? If the plural of tooth is teeth, why isn't the plural of booth, beeth? One goose, 2 geese. So one moose, 2 meese? One index, 2 indices? Doesn't it seem crazy that you can make amends but not one amend? If you have a bunch of odds and ends and get rid of all but one of them, what do you call it?

If teachers taught, why didn't preachers praught? If a vegetarian eats vegetables, what does a humanitarian eat? Sometimes I think all the English speakers should be committed to an asylum for the verbally insane. In what language do people recite at a play and play at a recital? Ship by truck and send cargo by ship? Have noses that run and feet that smell?

How can a slim chance and a fat chance be the same, while a wise man and a wise guy are opposites? You have to marvel at the unique lunacy of a language in which your house can burn up as it burns down, in which you fill in a form by filling it out and in which, an alarm goes off by going on.

English was invented by people, not computers, and it reflects the creativity of the human race, which, of course, is not a race at all That is why, when the stars are out, they are visible, but when the lights are out, they are invisible.

PS. - Why doesn't 'Buick' rhyme with 'quick'

You lovers of the English language might enjoy this .

There is a two-letter word that perhaps has more meanings than any other two-letter word, and that is 'UP.'

It's easy to understand UP, meaning toward the sky or at the top of the list, but when we awaken in the morning, why do we wake UP ? At a meeting, why does a topic come UP ? Why do we speak UP and why are the officers UP for election and why is it UP to the secretary to write UP a report ?

We call UP our friends. And we use it to brighten UP a room, polish UP the silver, we warm UP the leftovers and clean UP the kitchen. We lock UP the house and some guys fix UP the old car. At other times the little word has real special meaning. People stir UP trouble, line UP for tickets, work UP an appetite, and think UP excuses. To be dressed is one thing, but to be dressed UP is special.

And this UP is confusing: A drain must be opened UP because it is stopped UP. We open UP a store in the morning but we close it UP at night.

We seem to be pretty mixed UP about UP ! To be knowledgeable about the proper uses of UP, look the word UP in the dictionary. In a desk-sized dictionary, it takes UP almost 1/4th of the page and can add UP to about thirty definitions. If you are UP to it, you might try building UP a list of the many ways UP is used. It will take UP a lot of your time, but if you don't give UP, you may wind UP with a hundred or more. When it threatens to rain, we say it is clouding UP, When the sun comes out we say it is clearing UP..

When it rains, it wets the earth and often messes things UP .

When it doesn't rain for awhile, things dry UP

One could go on and on, but I'll wrap it UP , for now my time is UP , so............ it is time to shut UP ...!

GOODBYE MY KNIGHT

2011-12-15T16:03:00.001+08:00

Finally, the day has come.... at 12.00pm i have to say goodbye to my dearest knight. It was really sad moments. I watched him drove away till i lost the sight of him....

Iwill be missing you my knight of shining armour!!!!

GOODBYE

2011-12-12T20:15:00.001+08:00

Soon, very soon, am going to say goodbye to my love one. We have been together for 10 years. Have gone thru a lot of things together. You have been a very good listener all this while, my ramblings, my screams. Watch my tears fallen on my checks. We shared good songs, sad songs, cheerful songs. Really am going to miss you my dear KNIGHT... we have few more days together, will try to spend these left moments with you as much as possible.

Then later, wherever you are, or whoever you will be with, take good care of yourself... i will not be there to care for you anymore.... but i will always think of you, remember you... you will always be closed to my heart.

Goodbye my dear, my good friend, my confidante, my love... i wish you all the best... one day if our path cross, i hope i will see you still in good condition & healthy as you are now.

GOODBYE WJL 8149..........!!!!!

Quotes

2011-12-09T17:01:00.000+08:00

The best day of your life is the one on which you decide your life is your own. No apologies or excuses. No one to lean on, rely on, or blame. The gift is yours - it is an amazing journey - and you alone are responsible for the quality of it. This is the day your life really begins. ~Bob Moawad

A positive attitude may not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort. ~Herm Albright, quoted in Reader's Digest, June 1995

If you don't get everything you want, think of the things you don't get that you don't want. ~Oscar Wilde

Every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day. ~Author Unknown

The sun shines and warms and lights us and we have no curiosity to know why this is so; but we ask the reason of all evil, of pain, and hunger, and mosquitoes and silly people. ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

Happiness is an attitude. We either make ourselves miserable, or happy and strong. The amount of work is the same. ~Francesca Reigler
If you don't like something change it; if you can't change it, change the way you think about it. ~Mary Engelbreit

So often time it happens, we all live our life in chains, and we never even know we have the key. ~The Eagles, "Already Gone"

He who has so little knowledge of human nature as to seek happiness by changing anything but his own disposition will waste his life in fruitless efforts. ~Samuel Johnson

I've decided that the stuff falling through the cracks is confetti and I'm having a party! ~Betsy Cañas Garmon, www.wildthymecreative.com

The only people who find what they are looking for in life are the fault finders. ~Foster's Law

Think big thoughts but relish small pleasures. ~H. Jackson Brown, Jr., Life's Little Instruction Book

Every thought is a seed. If you plant crab apples, don't count on harvesting Golden Delicious. ~Bill Meyer
Blessed is he who expects nothing, for he shall never be disappointed. ~Attributed to both Jonathan Swift and Benjamin Franklin

To be upset over what you don't have is to waste what you do have. ~Ken S. Keyes, Jr., Handbook to Higher Consciousness

Defeat is not bitter unless you swallow it. ~Joe Clark

The only disability in life is a bad attitude. ~Scott Hamilton

If you aren't fired with enthusiasm, you will be fired with enthusiasm. ~Vince Lombardi

My riches consist not in the extent of my possessions, but in the fewness of my wants. ~J. Brotherton

There is nothing so easy but that it becomes difficult when you do it reluctantly. ~Publius Terentius Afer

Just because you're miserable doesn't mean you can't enjoy your life. ~Annette Goodheart

Let us rise up and be thankful, for if we didn't learn a lot today, at least we learned a little, and if we didn't learn a little, at least we didn't get sick, and if we got sick, at least we didn't die; so, let us all be thankful.

Got no checkbooks, got no banks,
Still I'd like to express my thanks -
I got the sun in the morning and the moon at night.
~Irving Berlin, "I Got the Sun in the Morning," 1946
To be wronged is nothing unless you continue to remember it. ~Confucius

I don't think of all the misery but of the beauty that still remains. ~Anne Frank, The Diary of a Young Girl

The best things in life are unexpected - because there were no expectations. ~Eli Khamarov, Surviving on Planet Reebok

The only difference between a good day and a bad day is your attitude. ~Dennis S. Brown
Could we change our attitude, we should not only see life differently, but life itself would come to be different. ~Katherine Mansfield

Enjoy the little things, for one day you may look back and realize they were the big things. ~Robert Brault, www.robertbrault.com

Could we change our attitude, we should not only see life differently, but life itself would come to be different. ~Katherine Mansfield

Enjoy the little things, for one day you may look back and realize they were the big things. ~Robert Brault, www.robertbrault.com

Could we change our attitude, we should not only see life differently, but life itself would come to be different. ~Katherine Mansfield

Enjoy the little things, for one day you may look back and realize they were the big things. ~Robert Brault, www.robertbrault.com

Why not learn to enjoy the little things - there are so many of them. ~Author Unknown

MIDLIFE CRISIS

2011-12-07T11:14:00.000+08:00

Mid Life Crisis - Top 10 Symptoms

Some breeze through mid life with barely a backward glance, whilst others experience symptoms painful enough to turn their lives upside-down. But how do you know if what you're feeling is a mid life crisis? And if it is one, then what? Well, read on and by the end of the article you'll be familiar with some of the main crisis symptoms and more importantly, what to do about it.

1. No longer 'knowing' the person staring back at you in the mirror.
This is a pretty sure sign that somewhere along the line you have lost connection with the essence of who you are. Getting back into alignment with your true, authentic self requires some honest soul searching, to find the answers to fundamental questions about what is important to you and what really matters.

2. Worrying about where your life is going.
You may well feel you're in no-man's land - you realize there is definitely no going back but there is no clear way forward. If you don't know where you're headed, any road will take you there - so, consult your inner map and make decisions about where you WANT to go. That way, you'll arrive at your destination of choice, rather than simply ending up 'somewhere'.

3. Feeling frustrated with just about everything.
When that nagging voice of dissatisfaction simply refuses to be silenced, then maybe it's time to listen to it! Don't just hope it will eventually go away, but ask yourself instead, 'What am I NOT doing that is causing this frustration?'

4. Experiencing feelings of regret.
Dwelling on what can't be undone keeps you locked into the past rather than focusing on the future. Learning from painful regrets and using them as a catalyst for change will help you move on and put the past where it belongs - behind you.

5. Focussing on what you are losing.
It feels as though you are standing on shifting sands, that your best years are behind you and that everything is changing - but not for the better. Things are changing certainly, but not ending. Remind yourself of what you have now and be open to all possibilities in readiness for the next new chapter in your life.

6. Feeling almost 'invisible'.
You may feel stripped of your identity and purpose and find it increasingly difficult to be 'seen' when you no longer attract instant admiration. Finding a new identity and a new visibility comes through learning what YOU value in yourself, what you have to offer others and feeling comfortable with the person underneath the facade.

7. Thinking that time is running out.
Midlife is that time when you metaphorically turn a corner and see the finishing post for the first time! Use your new awareness of time as a precious and limited commodity, to bring a sense of urgency to your dreams and provide the impetus to make them happen.

8. Questioning the meaning of life.
Midlife has been defined as the time when you reach the top of the ladder only to find it's leaning against the wrong wall. If you keep asking yourself 'Is this it?', then chances are your ladder is indeed against the wrong wall. Finding the right wall comes through redefining success in your own terms, so you make choices that activate and focus your life force.

9. Feeling trapped.
Somewhere along the way, various dreams and goals may have been silently shelved and before you know it, you feel hemmed in by thoughts of what life 'could have been'. What's the first thing we do when we feel trapped? We look for ways to escape! If you feel the urge to do a 'Reggie Perrin' or a 'Shirley Valentine' remember, Reggie and Shirley ultimately realized that what they were looking for wasn't escape - it was change.

10. Wanting to make some changes but not know where to begin.
Feeling overwhelmed saps your power and keeps you stuck, helpless and fearful of making the 'wrong' choices. The way to move out of the paralysis is to stop 'getting ready' and start 'doing'. Take responsibility for making change happen, no matter how small and remind yourself how good it feels to be in control.

If you've experienced any of these symptoms, then you could be forgiven for thinking you were indeed in some sort of crisis. What may feel like a crisis, is in fact, an inevitable and natural life stage characterized by internal change and reorientation. Change is always difficult and yes, you may well experience vulnerability, uncertainty and discomfort, but each symptom also offers an opportunity for challenge, excitement and growth in preparation for the next new chapter in your life.

99 Langkah Menuju Kesempurnaan Iman

2011-12-04T15:00:00.000+08:00

01. Bersyukur apabila mendapat nikmat;
02. Sabar apabila mendapat kesulitan;
03. Tawakal apabila mempunyai rencana/program;
04. Ikhlas dalam segala amal perbuatan;
05. Jangan membiarkan hati larut dalam kesedihan;
06. Jangan menyesal atas sesuatu kegagalan;
07. Jangan putus asa dalam menghadapi kesulitan;
08. Jangan usil dengan kekayaan orang;
09. Jangan hasad dan iri atas kesuksessan orang;
10. Jangan sombong kalau memperoleh kesuksessan;
11. Jangan tamak kepada harta;
12. Jangan terlalu ambitious akan sesuatu kedudukan;
13. Jangan hancur karena kezaliman;
14. Jangan goyah karena fitnah;
15. Jangan berkeinginan terlalu tinggi yang melebihi kemampuan diri.
16. Jangan campuri harta dengan harta yang haram;
17. Jangan sakiti ayah dan ibu;
18. Jangan usir orang yang meminta-minta;
19. Jangan sakiti anak yatim;
20. Jauhkan diri dari dosa-dosa yang besar;
21. Jangan membiasakan diri melakukan dosa-dosa kecil;
22. Banyak berkunjung ke rumah Allah (masjid);
23. Lakukan shalat dengan ikhlas dan khusyu;
24. Lakukan shalat fardhu di awal waktu, berjamaah di masjid;
25. Biasakan shalat malam;
26. Perbanyak dzikir dan do’a kepada Allah;
27. Lakukan puasa wajib dan puasa sunat;
28. Sayangi dan santuni fakir miskin;
29. Jangan ada rasa takut kecuali hanya kepada Allah;
30. Jangan marah berlebih-lebihan;
31. Cintailah seseorang dengan tidak berlebih-lebihan;
32. Bersatulah karena Allah dan berpisahlah karena Allah;
33. Berlatihlah konsentrasi pikiran;
34. Penuhi janji apabila telah diikrarkan dan mintalah maaf apabila karena sesuatu sebab tidak dapat dipenuhi;
35. Jangan mempunyai musuh, kecuali dengan iblis/syaitan;
36. Jangan percaya ramalan manusia;
37. Jangan terlampau takut miskin;
38. Hormatilah setiap orang;
39. Jangan terlampau takut kepada manusia;
40. Jangan sombong, takabur dan besar kepala;
41. Berlakulah adil dalam segala urusan;
42. Biasakan istighfar dan taubat kepada Allah;
44. Hiasi rumah dengan bacaan Al-Quran;
45. Perbanyak silaturrahim;
46. Tutup aurat sesuai dengan petunjuk Islam;
47. Bicaralah secukupnya;
48. Beristeri/bersuami kalau sudah siap segala-galanya;
49. Hargai waktu, disiplin waktu dan manfaatkan waktu;
50. Biasakan hidup bersih, tertib dan teratur;
51. Jauhkan diri dari penyakit-penyakit bathin;
52. Sediakan waktu untuk santai dengan keluarga;
53. Makanlah secukupnya tidak kekurangan dan tidak berlebihan;
54. Hormatilah kepada guru dan ulama;
55. Sering-sering bershalawat kepada nabi;
56. Cintai keluarga Nabi saw;
57. Jangan terlalu banyak hutang;
58. Jangan terlampau mudah berjanji;
59. Selalu ingat akan saat kematian dan sedar bahawa kehidupan dunia adalah kehidupan sementara;
60. Jauhkan diri dari perbuatan-perbuatan yang tidak bermanfaat seperti mengobrol yang tidak berguna;
61. Bergaul lah dengan orang-orang soleh;
62. Sering bangun di penghujung malam, berdoa dan beristighfar;
63. Lakukan ibadah haji dan umrah apabila sudah mampu;
64. Maafkan orang lain yang berbuat salah kepada kita;
65. Jangan dendam dan jangan ada keinginan membalas kejahatan dengan kejahatan lagi;
66. Jangan membenci seseorang karena pahaman dan pendiriannya;
67. Jangan benci kepada orang yang membenci kita;
68. Berlatih untuk berterus terang dalam menentukan sesuatu pilihan
69. Ringankan beban orang lain dan tolonglah mereka yang mendapatkan kesulitan.
70. Jangan melukai hati orang lain;
71. Jangan membiasakan berkata dusta;
72. Berlakulah adil, walaupun kita sendiri akan mendapatkan kerugian;
73. Jagalah amanah dengan penuh tanggung jawab;
74. Laksanakan segala tugas dengan penuh keikhlasan dan kesungguhan;
75. Hormati orang lain yang lebih tua dari kita
76. Jangan membuka aib orang lain;
77. Lihatlah orang yang lebih miskin daripada kita, lihat pula orang yang lebih berprestasi dari kita;
78. Ambilah pelajaran dari pengalaman orang-orang arif dan bijaksana;
79. Sediakan waktu untuk merenung apa-apa yang sudah dilakukan;
80. Jangan sedih karena miskin dan jangan sombong karena kaya;
81. Jadilah manusia yang selalu bermanfaat untuk agama,bangsa dan negara;
82. Kenali kekurangan diri dan kenali pula kelebihan orang lain;
83. Jangan membuat orang lain menderita dan sengsara;
84. Berkatalah yang baik-baik atau tidak berkata apa-apa;
85. Hargai prestasi dan pemberian orang;
86. Jangan habiskan waktu untuk sekedar hiburan dan kesenangan;
87. Akrablah dengan setiap orang, walaupun yang bersangkutan tidak menyenangkan.
88. Sediakan waktu untuk berolahraga yang sesuai dengan norma-norma agama dan kondisi diri kita;
89. Jangan berbuat sesuatu yang menyebabkan fisikal atau mental kita menjadi terganggu;
90. Ikutilah nasihat orang-orang yang arif dan bijaksana;
91. Pandai-pandailah untuk melupakan kesalahan orang dan pandai-pandailah untuk melupakan jasa kita;
92. Jangan berbuat sesuatu yang menyebabkan orang lain terganggu dan jangan berkata sesuatu yang dapat menyebabkan orang lain terhina;
93. Jangan cepat percaya kepada berita jelek yang menyangkut teman kita sebelum dipastikan kebenarannya;
94. Jangan menunda-nunda pelaksanaan tugas dan kewajiban;
95. Sambutlah huluran tangan setiap orang dengan penuh keakraban dan keramahan dan tidak berlebihan;
96. Jangan memforsir diri untuk melakukan sesuatu yang diluar kemampuan diri;
97. Waspadalah akan setiap ujian, cobaan, godaan dan tentangan. Jangan lari dari kenyataan kehidupan;
98. Yakinlah bahwa setiap kebajikan akan melahirkan kebaikan dan setiap kejahatan akan melahirkan merusakan;
99. Jangan sukses di atas penderitaan orang dan jangan kaya dengan memiskinkan orang

“Sebarkanlah walau satu ayat pun” (Sabda Rasulullah SAW) “Nescaya Allah memperbaiki bagimu amalan-amalanmu dan mengampuni bagimu dosa-dosamu. Dan barangsiapa mentaati Allah dan Rasul-Nya, maka sesungguhnya ia telah mendapat kemenangan yang besar.” (Surah Al-Ahzab:71)

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Mencari kesempurnaan & ketenangan

2011-12-04T11:02:00.000+08:00

Hati dilanda keresahan, jiwa benar-benar gelisah... entah mengapa. Dah berhari2 terasa begini... apakah kegelisahan ini adalah satu peringatan dariNya. Mungkin terlalu menumpukan duniawi hingga lalai dgn tuntutan akhirat. Mungkin juga. Kesibukan di ofis & kemalasan untuk mentelaah buku2 berunsur agama serta mendalaminya mungkin telah menjauhkan aku dariNya.... nasib baik masih ku dpt jadikan ceramah2 agama di Youtube sebagai halwa telinga. Mungkin masih belum cukup untukNya.. mungkin Allah menghendaki lebih lagi dariku.. ya mungkin jg.... 

Ini peringatan untuk diri ini... masa berlalu, hari berganti, tuntutan rohani perlu dipenuhi. Sifat2 yg keji di dalam diri harus dibuang jauh, segala penyakit hati mesti dihindari... perbaiki diri untuk menjadi insan yg terlebih baik dari semalam. Masa2 lapang mesti dipenuhi dgn aktiviti yg lebih berfaedah. Ya Allah, byknya yg perlu dilakukan untuk menjadikan diri ini lebih sempurna, ialah utk ketenangan & kebahagian diri ku jua..

Jika diperhatikan Kalam-kalam Hikmat yang lalu dapat dilihat bahawa hijab nafsu dan akal yang membungkus hati sehingga kebenaran tidak kelihatan. Akal yang ditutupi oleh kegelapan nafsu, iaitu akal yang tidak menerima pancaran nur, tunduk kepada perintah nafsu. Nafsu tidak pernah kenyang dan akal sentiasa ada jawapan dan alasan. Hujah akal menjadi benteng yang kukuh buat nafsu bersembunyi. Jangan memandang enteng kepada kekuatan nafsu dalam menguasai akal dan pancaindera. Al-Quran telah memberi peringatan mengenainya:

Nampakkah (wahai Muhammad) keburukan keadaan orang yang menjadikan hawa nafsunya: tuhan yang dipuja lagi ditaati? Maka dapatkah engkau menjadi pengawas yang menjaganya jangan sesat? Atau adakah engkau menyangka bahawa kebanyakan mereka mendengar atau memahami (apa yang engkau sampaikan kepada mereka)? Mereka hanyalah seperti binatang ternak, bahkan (bawaan) mereka lebih sesat lagi. ( Ayat 43 & 44 : Surah al-Furqaan )

Prinsip-prinsip lain yang berkaitan dengan proses belajar adalah menghargai waktu pada masa-masa belajar dan masa-masa luang. Kesempatan-kesempatan ini harus digunakan dengan sangat cermat di dalam lingkungan keluarga, karena hilangnya waktu dan kesempatan sama sekali tidak akan pernah bisa tergantikan, kesempatan-kesempatan ini begitu cepat berlalu dan dengan kelalaian yang sekecil apapun, umur yang bernilai akan terbuang sia-sia, hari-hari yang berharga akan terlewati, dan akhirnya kehidupan yang tanpa hasil tidak akan bernilai sama sekali.

“Dalam mencari kesempurnaan diri itu harus melalui: “Jangan pergi bila  belum jelas maksudnya, jangan makan bila belum tahu rasa yang dimakan,  janganlah berpakaian bila belum tahu nama pakaianmu. Kau bisa tahu dari  bertanya, dan dengan meniru juga, jadi dengan dilaksanakan, demikian  dalam hidup, ada orang bodoh dari gunung akan membeli emas, oleh tukang  emas diberi kertas kuning dikira emas mulia. Demikian pula orang  berguru, bila belum paham, akan tempat yang harus disembah, maka  tersesatlah!”

KEGELISAHAN TENTANG DIRI

2011-12-03T12:31:00.000+08:00

Dipetik dari netlog in Mencari Allah.

Sahabat, seringkah anda dihampiri pertanyaan-pertanyaan seperti'untuk apa semua ini? Apakah makna hidup saya? Kenapa hidup saya terasa atar saja, berputar-putar dari hari ke hari? Hanya pergantian episodesenang dan sedih? Mengapa saya seperti dikuasai oleh kehidupan saya?' pun ulai muncul di hati anda.

Sebenarnya, Allah setiap saat 'memanggil-manggil' kita untuk embali kepada-Nya. Dengan cara apa saja. Dia, dengan kasih sayang-Nya,terkadang membuat suasana kehidupan seorang anak manusia sedemikian rupasehingga kalbunya dibuat-Nya 'menoleh' kepada Allah. Hanya saja, teramatsedikit orang yang mendengarkan, atau berusaha mendengarkan,panggilan-Nya ini.Allah terkadang membuat kita terus menerus gelisah, atau terusmenerus mempertanyakan 'Siapa diri saya ini sebenarnya? Apa tujuan saya?

Apa makna kehidupan saya?,' dan sebagainya. Bukankah kegalauan semacam ini adalah sebuah seruan, panggilan supaya kita mencari kesejatian?Mencari kebenaran? Mencari 'Al-Haqq'? Allah, percayalah, akan selalumenurunkan pancingan-pancingan pada manusia untuk mencari-Nya.

Dalam hal ini, Allah amatlah pengasih. Apakah seseorang percaya
kepada-Nya atau tidak, beragama atau tidak, Dia tidak pandang bulu.Apakah seseorang membaca kitab-Nya atau tidak, percaya pada parautusan-Nya ataupun tidak, semua orang pernah dipanggil-Nya dengan caraseperti ini. Setiap orang pasti dipanggil-Nya seperti ini untuk mencari kesejatian, untuk mencari hakikat kehidupan. Bentuk 'pancingan' semacam ini pula yang dialami oleh para pencari, maupun para Nabi. Nabi Ibrahim yang gelisah dan mencari tempat mengabdi (ilah), yang diabadikan dalam QS 6:74-79. Juga kita lihat Nabi Musa, misalnya. Setelah hanyut di sungai nil, dia dibesarkan oleh salah seorang maha raja yang terbesar sepanjang sejarah, Ramses I. Hidup dalam kemewahan, kecukupan, hanya bersenang-senang. Tapi dia selalu 'galau' ketika melihat di sekelilingnya, bangsa Bani Israil, yang ketika itu menjadi warga mesir kelas rendahan, sebagai budak. Dia yang hidup dengan ayahnya Ramses I, tentunya setiap hari melihat sisi kemanusiaan ayahnya, normal saja. Dia mungkin hanya sedikit heran mengapa masyarakat mesir mau menyembah ayahnya.

Hanya saja, kadang kemewahan, kenyamanan, mengubur harta kita yang sangat berharga itu: potensi kita untuk mencari siapakah diri kita sebenarnya. Kita disibukkan oleh pekerjaan, dibuai oleh kesibukan, mengejar kesuksesan kerja, atau ditipu oleh dalih mengejar karir atau sekolah, atau nyaman bersama keluarga. Sangat sering, ketika hal ini terjadi, pertanyaan-pertanyaan esensial seperti itu, yaitu potensi pencarian kebenaran yang kita bawa sejak lahir, yang ketika kanak-kanak sangat nyata, terkubur dan terlupakan begitu saja seiring waktu kita menjadi semakin dewasa. Padahal, itu adalah 'potensi mencari Allah' yang
Dia bekali untuk kita ketika lahir. Bukan berarti kita harus meninggalkan semua itu, bukan sama sekali. Tapi, jangan biarkan semua itu menenggelamkan potensi pencarian kebenaran yang telah Allah turunkan pada kita semenjak lahir.

Ketika kita tenggelam dalam dunia seperti itu, kita bahkan tidak menyadari bahwa kehidupan kita berputar-putar saja dari hari ke hari. Sekolah, mengejar karir, pergi pagi pulang sore, terima gaji, menikah, membesarkan anak, menyekolahkan anak, pensiun, dan seterusnya setiap hari, selama bertahun-tahun. Apakah hanya itu? Bukankah kita tanpa sadar telah terjebak kepada pusaran kehidupan yang terus berputar-putar saja, tanpa makna? Celakanya, kita mencetak anak-anak kita untuk mengikuti pola yang sama dengan kita. Pada saatnya nanti, mungkin hidup mereka pun akan mengulangi putaran-putaran tanpa makna yang pernah kita tempuh.

Sangat jarang orang yang potensi pencariannya akan Allah belum
terkubur. Dalam hal ini, jika kita masih saja gelisah mencari makna kehidupan, maka kegelisahan kita merupakan hal yang perlu disyukuri. Berapa orang, sahabat, yang masih mau mendengarkan kegelisahannya sendiri? Padahal kegelisahannya itu merupakan rembesan dari jiwa yang menjerit tidak ingin terkubur dalam kehidupan dunia. Dia 'menjerit' ingin mencari Al-Haqq, dan 'rembesannya' kadang naik ke permukaan dalam bentuk kegelisahan. Sayang, sebagian orang segera membantai kegelisahannya, potensi pencarian kebenarannya ini, justru pada saat ketika ia timbul; karena secara psikologis hal ini memang terasa tidak nyaman. Maka untuk melupakannya, ia semakin menenggelamkan diri lebih dalam lagi dalam pekerjaannya, kesibukannya, bersenang-senang, atau berdalih menutupi kegelisahannya dengan berusaha lebih lagi mencintai istri dan anak, atau keluarga, menenggelamkan diri dalam keasyikan hobi… dan sebagainya. Atau, membantainya dengan kesenangan spiritual sesaat, seperti datang ke pengajian bukan dengan niat mencariNya tapi hanya untuk melenyapkan kegelisahannya, seperti obat sakit kepala saja. Kegelisahan hilang, dia pun pergi lagi.. Atau juga dengan mengindoktrinasi dirinya:

"Manusia diciptakan untuk beribadah!! Segala jawaban telah ada di Qur'an!!" Oke, tapi ibadah yang seperti apa? Bisakah kita benar-benar beribadah, tanpa mengetahui maknanya? Atau lebih jauh lagi, mampukah ia menjangkau makna Qur'an?

Beranikah kita jujur pada diri kita sendiri: Jika qur'an benar, mengapa kegelisahannya tidak hilang? Mengapa qur'an seperti kitab suci yang tidak teratur susunannya? Mengapa ayatnya kadang melompat-lompat, dari satu topik ke yang lainnya secara mendadak? Jika kita beriman, apakah iman itu? Apakah takwa itu? Apakah Lauhul Mahfudz? Apakah Ad-diin? Apakah Shiratal Mustaqim? Jalan yang lurus yang bagaimana? Mengapa qur'an terasa abstrak dan tak terjangkau makna sebenarnya? Ini sebenarnya pertanyaan-pertanyaan jujur, dan sama sekali bukan menghakimi qur'an.

Kadang orang terus saja mengindoktrinasi dirinya sendiri, padahal qur'an sendiri menyatakan bahwa tidak ada yang mampu menjangkaunya selain orang-orang yang disucikan/ mutahhiriin, (QS 56:77-79). [Q.S. 56] "Sesungguhnya Al Qur'an ini adalah bacaan yang sangat mulia (77). Pada kitab yang terpelihara (78). Dan tidak menyentuhnya kecuali hamba-hamba yang disucikan/ muthahhiriin (79)." Apakah dia berani yakin bahwa dia adalah seorang yang telah disucikan, sehingga makna qur'an telah terbentang begitu jelas dihadapannya? Jika demikian, apa gunanya pernyataan : "Semua jawaban telah ada di Qur'an" baginya? Apakah ia akan terus saja membohongi diri dengan membaca terjemahan qur'an dan memaksakan diri meyakini bahwa ia telah mendapatkan maknanya?

Jeritan jiwanya tersebut ia timbun dengan segala cara. Ia tidak ingin mendengarkannya. Hal ini, sudah barang tentu akan membuat seseorang semakin terperangkap saja dalam rutinitasnya, dan semakin terkuburlah potensi pencariannya akan kebenaran. Padahal seharusnya 'jeritan jiwa' tersebut didengarkan. Jika anak kita menangis karena lapar, apakah kita
akan pergi bersenang-senang untuk melupakannya, dan berharap anak kita akan berhenti menangis dengan sendirinya? Bukankah seharusnya kita mencari tahu, kenapa anak kita menangis?

Kembali kepada kisah Musa as. Demikian pula Musa, ia pun, sebagaimana kita semua, sejak kecil dibekali pertanyaan-pertanyaan dari dalam dirinya. Dibekali kegelisahan pencarian kebenaran. Bibit-bibitnya ada. Allah, untuk menumbuhkan bibit-bibit pencariannya itu supaya tidak terkubur dalam kemewahan kehidupan istana, menyiramnya dengan kebingungan
yang lebih besar lagi. Ia dipaksa-Nya menelan kenyataan bahwa ayahnya pernah membantai jutaan bayi lelaki Bani Israil. Ia dipaksaNya menelan kenyataan bahwa ayahnya menganggap Bani Israil adalah warga kelas dua yang rendah, bodoh, dan memang patut diperbudak. Puncaknya, ia dipaksaNya menelan kenyataan bahwa dirinya sendiri ternyata merupakan seorang anak Bani Israil, keturunan warga budak kelas dua, yang dipungut dari sungai Nil. Pada saat ini, pada diri seorang Pangeran Musa lenyaplah sudah harga dirinya. Hancur semua masa lalunya. Dia seorang tanpa sejarah diri sekarang. Ditambah lagi ia telah membunuh seorang lelaki, maka larilah ia terlunta-lunta, menggelandang di padang pasir, mempertanyakan siapa dirinya sebenarnya.

Justru, pada saat inilah ia berangkat dengan pertanyaan terpenting bagi seorang pejalan suluk, yang telah tumbuh disiram subur oleh Allah dengan air kegalauan: "Siapa diriku sebenarnya?". Pertanyaan ini telah tumbuh kokoh dalam diri Musa as., dan sebagaimana kita semua mengetahui kisah lanjutannya, di ujung padang pasir Madyan ada seorang pembimbing untuk menempuh jalan menuju Allah ta'ala, yaitu Nabi Syu'aib as, yang lalu menyuruh anaknya untuk menjemput Musa dan membawa Musa kepadanya. Di bawah bimbingannya, Musa dididik menempuh jalan taubat, supaya "arafa nafsahu", untuk "arif akan nafs (jiwa)-nya sendiri". Dan dengan bimbingan Syu'aib akhirnya ia mengerti dengan sebenar-benarnya (ia telah 'arif), bahwa dirinya diciptakan Allah sebagai seorang Rasul bagi bangsa Bani Israil, bukan sebagai seorang pangeran Mesir. Ia menemukan kembali misi hidupnya, tugas kelahirannya yang untuk apa Allah telah menciptakannya. Ia telah menemukan untuk apa dia diciptakan, yang disabdakan oleh Rasulullah SAW: "Setiap orang dimudahkan untuk mengerjakan apa yang telah Dia ciptakan untuk itu." (Shahih Bukhari no. 2026).

Maka dari itu, sahabat-sahabat, jika ada diantara anda yang mungkin ingin sekali bertemu seorang guru sejati, atau seorang mursyid yang Haqq untuk minta bimbingannya, maka terlebih dahulu anda harus benar-benar mencari Allah, mencari kebenaran, mencari Al-Haqq. Pertanyaan "Siapakah aku? Untuk apa aku diciptakan?" harus benar-benar telah tumbuh dalam diri
kita (dan itu pun bukan menjadi jaminan bahwa perjalanannya akan berhasil). Anda memang telah benar-benar butuh jawaban dari pertanyaan-pertanyaan itu. Jika tidak demikian, atau jika belum merasa benar-benar membutuhkan, percayalah, tidak akan ada seorang mursyid sejati yang akan mengutus anak-anaknya untuk menjemput anda.

"Man 'arafa nafsahu, faqad 'arafa rabbahu", bukan semata-mata
artinya "siapa yang mengenal dirinya, maka mengenal Tuhannya." Kata " 'Arafa", juga "Ma'rifat," berasal dari kata 'arif, yang bermakna 'sepenuhnya memahami', 'mengetahui kebenarannya dengan sebenar-benarnya'; dan bukan sekedar mengetahui. dan nafsahu berasal dari kata 'nafs', salah satu dari tiga unsur yang membentuk manusia (Jasad, nafs, dan ruh). Jadi, kurang lebih maknanya adalah "barangsiapa yang 'arif (sebenar-benarnya telah mengetahui) akan nafs-nya, maka akan 'arif pula
akan Rabbnya". Jalan untuk mengenal kebenaran hakiki, mengenal Allah, hanyalah dengan mengenal nafs terlebih dahulu.

Setelah arif akan nafs kita sendiri, lalu 'arif akan Rabb kita, maka setelah itu kita baru bisa memulai melangkah di atas 'Ad-diin'. 'Arif akan Rabb, atau dalam bahasa Arab disebut 'Ma'rifatullah'
(meng- 'arifi Allah dengan sebenar-benarnya), sebenarnya barulah –awal– perjalanan, bukan tujuan akhir perjalanan sebagaimana dipahami kebanyakan orang. Salah seorang sahabat Rasul selalu mengatakan kalimatnya yang terkenal: "Awaluddiina ma'rifatullah", Awalnya diin adalah ma'rifat (meng-'arif-i) Allah.

LAST NITE DREAMS

2011-12-01T13:54:00.000+08:00

Again, tears drop in my sleep... whenever he came into my dreams..... seeing him in my dreams, feels like so real.... woke-up, my face was wet with tears & was still crying... don't know why, the effect is still there... till don't know when, he is the love of my life for watever reason.

Corat-coret Maal Hijrah

2011-11-27T16:29:00.000+08:00

Agak lama x berblogging....why??? Too much things in my head. Work which never ending, family affairs & other things too.... So since too much things in mind, i really don't know which one should i blogged. But today, alhamdullillah, Maal Hijrah... syukur kepada Allah kerana diberikan umur yg panjang utk meneruskan perjuangan dlm kehidupan, memperbaiki setiap mm dlm diri to be better person, masa untuk bertaubat kepada Allah Taala di atas dosa2 yg lalu. Alhamdullillah.

Ok wat happen ye, past few weeks... oh yeah, 2 wks ago, had dinner at my sister's place at Putrajaya.... hem, spt biasa lah bila berkumpul ramai2 tu, ada aje citer2 hangat.. & x kurang jg ada rasa yg kurang senang.. itulah kehidupan & terpulanglah kepada kita untuk menilai perlakuan, kata2 setiap insan disekeliling kita. Jika kita biarkan hati untuk terluka maka luka lah kita.... jika dibiarkan ianya berlalu tanpa terlalu memikirkannya, akan selamatlah kita dari terus berperasangka, berteka-teki, marah, sedih, kecil-hati, jauh hati & macam2 penyakit hati yg memudaratkan. So terpulang lah macamana kita nak menghadapinya... to me... i did think about it for awhile, allow myself to feel hurt for awhile, of cos berteka-teki cuba mencari tang mana silapnya... wat have i done? That's the question i allowed myself to think... but since i couldn't find the answer (actually i can just give excuses for the actions, but of cos when i do dat, i will only see bad things about the person), so i decided, let it be... i've done my part, do my best the way i know how. I can't control wat ppl feel about me, i can't make ppl to like me if they already decided to hate me... SO LET IT BE.......

Remember, my earlier posting, about marriage, about having someone in my life.... okey, it's not going to happen... i have done my istikharah, few times actually, first 2 times, it seems +ve, but after few more & considering all aspect, i don't think so... i can be a wife a again, or being married again... but being a mother again, dats i find it difficult, since i don't really like children so much... but wait, wait, i love my doter very much. Being a mother not easy, especially when it's not your own. But i do want to think about it more.... but then, he is pushing me, come-on it was just two weeks, i can't decide within 2 weeks. I have being single for 23 years... one big decision like dis i need more time.. but then since he pushed, i have no choice... maybe, maybe if he give me more time, the result would be different. Anyway i have no regrets with my decision... i have asked guidance from Allah, i believe at this moment this is wat He wants me to do. Maybe, i am better-off by myself, He knows best.

This morning had breakfast with my doter & SIL also my sister & her family.

LOOKING BACK

2011-11-20T16:33:00.000+08:00

Going back to the past.... going thru the photos posted in FB, looking back @ myself for the past 5 yrs... things that happening in my life.... the smiles on my face... remembering all good moments, sweet moments... how my life has changed for the past 5 years... everything was really good & i hope will always be good... life has been treated me so well & of cos Allah has permitted it all to happen to me. Alhamdullillah.

Looking back at these 5 years, i really don't believe it , those years before dat... those miserable years, filled with sadness & tears, struggles & hardship.... today, i am where i want to be Alhamdullillah... just carry on with wat i have in life now.... spend my life searching & looking for things dat matters most....ALLAH

PENING

2011-11-18T14:29:00.000+08:00

Subhanallah.... really pening ni.... never ask for this.... i can decide anything on my own when it doesn't involve other people. It is so much easier...This is so difficult... i really don't know wat to do, wat to say....

BERADA DI PERSIMPANGAN

2011-11-15T23:03:00.000+08:00

Ya Allah....

Ketika berada di hadapan Mu tadi, x semena-mena airmata mengalir deras. Kedua belah tangan ku tadah, memohon petunjuk dariMu... Ya Allah... betapa payahnya untuk ku membuat keputusan. Betul-betul diri ini berada dalam kekeliruan dan kebingongan Ya Allah... kerana persoalan yg tiba-tiba muncul ini benar2 mengganggu ketenangan ku... Kerana persoalan ini amat berat & pertimbangan sewajarnya harus diberikan. Ini bukan satu keputusan yang boleh dibuat dalam keadaan tergesa2 ataupun mengikut kata hati di waktu ini. Ini persoalan kehidupan yg tinggal sisa... Terlalu banyak yg harus difikirkan... antara keinginan diri-sendiri dan perjalanan hidup berlandaskan kalam Mu Ya Allah.....

Ya Allah....

Dalam keadaan yg membelenggu hati dan perasaan ini, ingin saja aku melepaskan segala peluang, meneruskan kehidupan sebegini selama-lamanya.. tapi apakah itu perancanganMu buat ku, atau kah itu satu pilihan yg terbaik buat ku Ya Allah.....

Ya Allah....

Ku mohon petunjuk Mu, mohon pelindunganMu... Apa juga yg terbaik buatku Ya Allah, takdirkanlah ianya untuk ku. Dan permudahkannya bagiku.... serta tabahkanlah hatiku dlm menghadapi segalanya Ya Allah... apa jua perancangan Mu buatku Ya Allah, aku yakin ada hikmah di sebaliknya dan hanyalah Engkau yang mengetahui apa yg terbaik buatku. Justru ku serahkan segalanya padaMu...

THIS HEART

2011-11-15T17:18:00.000+08:00

Has been beaten down and battered
This heart - this heart
Has been torn apart and scattered
But what's left of this heart of mine
I will lay down in your hands
'Cause in the light of your love
This heart still stands

Well I'd been walking down a one way street
Filled with sorrow and confusion
Searching every single face I'd meet
For some heaven I could hold
And when I felt like I was running dry
And love was always gonna pass me by
You brought me out of the rain and in from the cold

Well I believe for every wayward soul
Crying out for its completion
There's another that will make it whole
That's just waiting to be found
And I confess that I was losing faith
And I'd all but given up the chase
When you took hold of my heart and turned it around

This heart - this heart
Has been beaten down and battered
This heart - this heart
Has been torn apart and scattered
But what's left of this heart of mine
I will lay down in your hands
'Cause in the light of your love
This heart still stands

What's left of this heart of mine I will lay down in your hands
'Cause in the light of your love this heart still stands

MY FEAR

2011-11-14T23:18:00.000+08:00

A friend asked me today, why are u so afraid of marriage??? I don't know... i don't have the answer eventhough i love to see people getting married. Happy for them... but me..... when comes to me... it become so fearful... i do think about it once in a while.... would like to go thru it again.. but when someone appear.... my mind, my heart became haywire, scared & fearful....

Sometimes i do think, i've to find someone, get married, have a companion for old age... i do know the need of that...to have someone beside me, to share my fear, my happiness & most of all my life. But i just couldn't imagine me, getting married again.

Maybe, being alone for half of my life ... the thought of sharing my life with someone else, changing my routine & sacrificing a lot of things, dat scares me... could be. Yeah, have been doing things my way, have been so independent.... i know it will be difficult for me to adept to a new kind of life... Or could it be, the failed marriage, that really give me this fear feeling of marriage. I don't know really.

But i do hope, if ever someone comes along, crossing my path, Allah will guide me, open my heart, to go thru dat again, to love again.....

For now, i just lead my life the way i know how & pray for the best.