THAT WOMAN (2)

Slowly she walked into the office. She don't even look-up. I watched here closely. She went to her desk, put her bag, on her pc. Suddenly she raised her head, looked at me, her eyes were swollen, today worst than yesterday and she put-up a heavy eye-shadow to cover it. But still everyone can see it. There was tears in her eyes. 

I walked towards her, hold her hand, i saw in her eyes, her heart is breaking, i think its already shattered like a broken glass. Suddenly tears falling down. She wipe it & i can see she trying  to control it from falling. I didn't say a word. Just looked at her. What can i say anyway. 

She said she feel her whole world has been destroyed. Tsunami had hit her life. She is dying inside. It wasn't good enough that she blamed herself for what happened, but everyone are pointing fingers towards her. Telling her, no wonder all these years she can't get along with anyone, not even her own flesh & blood.  No one's fault except her. Her bad attitude, her fussiness and so on..... a very long list. She just want to die, she wish the earth swallow her than and than. 

She already don't have much in her life rite now.... but now, she really have nothing. Nothing to lean on, no reason for her to live anymore. She feel there is no place for her on this earth, she feel she is not good enough to prolong her stay here.

I held her in my arms, i told her "my dear, remember, you live in this world not because of others, but because of Allah Taala, this is Allah testing you, your patience & your faith. Remember, you are His servant, you only live for Him. People come & go, yes sometimes it matters what people think of you. But at the end of the day Allah judgement mattered most."

She cried & keep crying... i wonder how does she feel tonite. I hope she is getting better, feeling better... she said she will try too keep her life low at the moment, but living the way she knows best. I pray for her... i know she is miserable right now, but i do hope she is strong enough to face this, she managed to get herself together when tsunami strikes her last time. 

Allah, please help her, give her the strength & your love, do protect her heart from breaking.