Frustration...

It's normal for normal ppl to have this feeling rite? Which is wat i am feeling now.....i really dragging my feet to go to office lately, not lately actually, i think this has been happening for more than a year. But since last week it's getting worst.... why? I was promised a promotion & increment, which i have been waiting for so long... with the paper qualification that i got, i was hoping it will be materialised soon.... but too bad, i don't understand why... skin color? could be... those with farer skin, did get the promotion, eventhough they can't even speak english or write in english & without so called paper qualification. But for those darker skin, too bad ler... with degree pun still kena bag to be promoted. What to do..... somehow, i have decided to find another job, this place is not giving me the satisfaction anymore.... try so hard to think positive to comfort myself, i do that every morning, including wearing bright color dress just to make sure i am in good mood everyday. It does work actually, but still at the back of my mind, i feel disappointed. Maybe it is time to move on, to start new somewhere, i know it will be a bit difficult to find another job, especially for a woman at this age.... but who knows.... rezeki Allah tu kan di mana2, not to worry about that. So till then, i will just have to be patient, redha & tabahkan hati.... this is another ujian dari Allah Taala.... Alhamdullillah, at least i know, i am still diperhatikan olehNya.