DIA PERGI DULU

12.00 am 7/2/11 - am going to sleep... mata dah mengantuk... tapi berpusing2 di tempat tido, cuaca agak panas, but then i on the air-cond....pusing kiri x kena, pusing kanan x kena.... bangun... continue wat i was doing before trying to go to bed.... 1.48 am my phone rang, it was my elder sister, before pick-up the phone i was wondering, why she called so late, she cannot sleep ke & nk continue gossip ke... but then, i think again, cannot be, mesti ada something urgent... cepat2 pick-up... than she said "dian dh x de". Innalillah.... mengigil tubuh ku.... so i told her, we have to go now.... after putting down the hp, called my doter... than i don't really know wat to do, kelam-kabut x tentu hala, picked-up my travel bag, put-in telekong, surat yaasin, sepasang baju, towel, deodorant, sub-block, lipstick... mcm nk pi holiday, entah pape la. By 4.00 am, my doter, her hubby, my sis & family sampai. We all pun bertolak ke Ipoh.. smpi Tapah around 5.00 am, we stopped, had breakfast & solat subuh... around 6.30am bertolak ke Ipoh, reached there about 7.00am... masuk, 2 of her sisters & brother were there, crying hugging us.... tgk jenazah, sedekah al-fatihah & yaasin....

Yang sedih tgk anak2 dia, Hanna age almost 5 & Uzair age almost 2... yg si kakak, trying to be strong, we can see how she control herself not to cry... kesian pulak... she suppose to cry, not avoiding it... tu yg buat sedih sgt tu.... but she does look confused, why her mum laying there not moving & covered. She asked me "ngapa mama pakai putih". Sedih & me too try not to cry in-front of her.. Si adik, baru dapat kaki, so excited, berlari ke sana sini, dunno wat was happening.... 

Most of her mak sedara managed to make it to visit her for the last time, k.ze, me, azmah, yati & lah, serta pak sedara p.su midi.... kaze yg dtg, nurul & family, eyda & family, yana & hubby, murni & hubby.

Hari ini baru ler compute in my head, that i've lost another family member, semalam x terasa sgt, even nk nangis pun susah, but today baru meleleh airmata.

Muga Allah cucuri rahmat ke atas rohnya & rohnya ditempatkan bersama orang2 yg soleh Amin Al-fathihah.

Mengapa kamu kafir kepada Allah, padahal kamu tadinya mati, lalu Allah menghidupkan kamu, kemudian kamu dimatikan dan dihidupkan-Nya kembali, kemudian kepada-Nya-lah kamu dikembalikan? (Al Baqarah:28)

Sesuatu yang bernyawa tidak akan mati melainkan dengan izin Allah, sebagai ketetapan yang telah ditentukan waktunya. Barangsiapa menghendaki pahala dunia, niscaya Kami berikan kepadanya pahala dunia itu, dan barangsiapa menghendaki pahala akhirat, Kami berikan (pula) kepadanya pahala akhirat. Dan Kami akan memberi balasan kepada orang-orang yang bersyukur. (Al-Imran :145)