The "M" word

Last weekend, she met-up with her friends, a raya gathering among friends actually. The M question pop-up again.... not that she is tired with hearing that, it just that she have no answer for it. The only explanation she can give to people when asked, the M word is not in her vocabulary anymore. Not that she never think about it, she did, but she just couldn't imagine herself in it again. At the moment, she has no interest, not keen.... she is comfortable with her life, she is not willing to change it just because people are asking or just to fill-up up the loneliness that  she feels at times.

Everyone, married or not will face the feeling of loneliness sometimes, so she is not scare of that feelings, actually she used to it & knows how to handle it... it's not a big problem to her. Think about the M word, does she really need someone to take care of her, so she should consider it... not really, she has been taking care of herself all this while and even taking care of her child on her own successfully, even not perfectly but alhamdullillah. And she believe Allah is looking after her all the time. 

She has nothing against the M word, she loves hearing people getting married, especially family & friends, she pray for their happiness and she loves giving advise or opinion about it. She loves putting-up the quotation about marriage on her FB wall. She like seeing people happily married, or married couples lovingly showing affection to each other. She does not envy them, she find herself feeling happy seeing happy married couples or hearing about their happiness. But she just cannot imagine herself in it. 

She does have faith, whatever her situation now, or the choice that she is making now, insyaAllah, Allah knows best and He must have a better plan for her.