AGAIN

Her eyes are half open, she really need these sleep. Last night she was awaken by the sharp pain on her chest at 2.00 am..... She did what she used to do....coughing, as much as possible.... & trying to go back to sleep. The pain comes & go.... Its gone for 10-15 minutes, than comes again, till 4.15 am, when she wakes up for her daily routine, the pain gone.... But she is feeling tired & a bit worry. She proceed with her normal routine, skipped the reading of Quran translation and get back to sleep before the Fajr adzan... 

But she couldn't sleep, thinking, what if next time the pain is not going away... ok she will take the medication provided by the doctor, which will give her time to rush herself to hospital. Then ok, she drive to the hospital, alone, by herself at the wee hours.... she need to park her car at the parking lot & walk to the emergency clinic at wee hours.... she can't imagine herself doing that.... it scares her.... 

Okey... another alternative.... she call both her husband & daughter, would there be enough time or not, to wait for them to send her to hospital. Doctor's advise is that, immediately rush to hospital when having chest pain again... no time to wait for people.

"Why am i worry too much..., if it is already my time, than it is my time....." she whispered to herself. The most important thing, she pray that Allah will take her when He is most REDHA with her - during the moment when He is most pleased with her. 

" Grant me the best of husnul khatimah Ya Allah Hu Ya Allah."