Seek Allah - Alhamdullillah

Laying in bed, her eyes focus on the ceiling. Her face was serene & peaceful, once a while she smile thinking of what she is going through now. The choices she had choose & decision she had made. It was really hard for her.... Before she decided, she was so scared, that the choice & decision she is going to make might break her into pieces, she might lose her mind, be depressed & being where she used to be long time ago.... she was really, really scared. But she had a surprise of the outcome. 

She had seek Allah for guidance, for the strength... she have faith in Him... she was confident with her decision... She only cried once after she decided, on the day she made-up her mind.... And after that she live her life with calmness, like nothing really happened, nothing was affected by the decision she had made. She didn't sulk or live miserably. Really she was surprise by the person she is now.... She was never like this when facing with crisis... She was never so calm like this.... there is no tsunami in her heart.... Normally she will seek people for help, looking for a shoulder to cry on.... but not this time.... She is totally alone in this, this time.... Alone but not alone.... She is with Allah this time around.... She seek only Him, she talk only to Him... there is where all her strength came from this time... there is where all her patience came from this time... the calmness, the peacefulness that she is having now is from Him.... 

She smile again.... "Alhamdullillah", she whisper softly.